Friday, April 15, 2011
Tml is exam again.. everytime exam i will be sick.. maybe too stress that why sick. Recently some $$$ matter happen at hm, i cant help much at all, close to totally give up. I went to my aunt's place to study but end up got nag by her telling all abt my family problem. In the end i told her that is the reason why i am not getting married, getting married is easy but no $$$ no 'honey'. As usually she will take abt her good old days when she earn her 1st down payment for car & flat and etc... Keep telling me to sell away my bike and sell away my absolut and keep the $$$$ for rainy days and etc...
I told her absolut is my life selling away is not possible, riding is passion. Not because of DT maybe i have gave up riding long ago.. and now even thought how much i want to change bike but thinking abt how greenie go thru thick and thin with me and DT i cant bear to let go. I still remember the 1st time i bought greenie i was very poor, give up a good pay job for a shitty job. Down payment my bike cause DT said since i love it so much she will just agree with me. When i got my bike i couldnt fork out $$ to pay of my 1st or 2nd installment and is DT who paid for me. she is not earning much and i cant get her paid for it (pide problem) and from than onward i learn how not to let my love ones go thru the bad time for me. I work hard to pay off my bike, no matter how badly i wan to mod my bike i still keep it stock. DT like it simple and neat, she dont like it noise and fancy. I begin to sell my absolut (as business) and work hard to earn extra cash from part time and work incentive so that both of us can live a better life. I provide her what i can provide make sure everyday she is happy and never worry abt anything as long as i am around. No matter how hard it is she is always my 1st place, i will try my best to pay off her bill, give her 'allowance' and buy something for her to make her happy. As long as she is happy i am happy too :) we never talk abt $$$ cause $$ hurt r/s.
I wil save up to bring her for overseas trip, save up to pamper her and save up for random surprises. When i have already save up to at point of time, she left me. I almost bought sometime for her and sometime that might confused her at that moment. Anyway Still life without her i begin not to save up.. spend my $$$ on absolut and modding my bike, plus mainly at party (i know it is damn bad) Have i gone back to my old self, the old self who dont care abt life or future. But i promise myself and that someone before, i will save up my absolut profit and open an absolut cafe. I dont know how long and i dont know when will it happen but i am heading toward there, soon 1 day i will make it to the absolut cafe.
I wonder how is DT doing now? Is she studying or at work? How is her life? Is she still as happy as before? I wanna to msg or email her but think abt it better not.. Enough of trouble for her and i really dont wan to bother her.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
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