Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Maybe my body language have show others the quiet side of myself, some ppl actually notice there is a slight change in my life after her. Ppl will suddenly concern more abt my life, asking what wrong and what happen. Why suddenly i am so down, not so bubbly and active like before. Someone told me this over the weekend: 誰知道美麗燦爛的微笑下 隱藏著不是真正的快樂. I begin to think where did my smile go? where have the laughter gone to?
I dunno, i dunno where did it the smile gone to? I try very hard to find them but it doesnt always last long. Maybe she might have took away some of the smile and i am just back to myself before having her around. The snowman who dun wan to talk much, who trying very hard to learn how to be independent. I begin to tone down and learn how to be independent, the process it really long and hard to cope. It take alot of time and patient to really be independent and when u learn to be be independent meaning u r on ur own. You talk less and you do more.
I visited eggcow over the weekend, beside for not visiting her for the past 3 months i also wanna to talk to her cause i have a bad day. When i wrote her on the stack of eggcow's booklet i thought abt DT, whenever i miss eggcow i will pull her along with me to visit her. She know i value eggcow alot, i will talk non stop abt eggcow. I realise beside eggcow i have other 'frens' who are there too.. it is quite scary to go to this kind of places to visit ur frens, of cause the emo feeling make me cry on the spot.
Sometime i realise that the more u wan to get the things there will always be some problem happen, i begin to learn the i dont care attitude or cant be bother attitude. Doing what i should do and get everything right, no point blaming others. I read this somewhere: Don't get disappointed when God doesnt give you what you want... for he know the best time for you to have..
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
1:13 AM
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