Saturday, January 08, 2011
Yesterday 1 of my close fren left us and be with the lord!! God I am losing lotz of frens, serious I dont know why is that so. Is God trying to teach me how to cherish and treasure ppl. I can't help but to drop her an email last night, wanna to msg her but thinking that I shld start to learn how to not to trouble ppl and dont bring my problem to them. I am glad that I still have her as so call fren, well we did truly love each other before and although this dont last long but at least we have it once. we cherish and treasure each other before and now we living with no regret. She still give me her blessing of finding a man that I really love and this will be the happy ending for everyone. Will it really be happy ending for everyone?? Well I don't know, all i know now is to get my study and career right. Whatever gonna happen it will happen so why go prearrage all this. I am so tired of loving someone wholeheartedly, I have given enough love as an output. I am not expecting anything in return but I don't wan to try it anymore. Maybe is the fear of falling on love again, Thinking that the person u love and treasure the most might stop loving u again. 1 of my ex told me this before, it is not that I don't love u anymore but it is time for me to stop loving u. When I hear that it hurt even more cause even there is love within is she still choose to stop loving me!! Well today ask my fren how much is too much?? How much is enough?? Maybe a r/s is not abt how much I give or receive but is how trueful u love a person.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
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