Sunday, January 16, 2011
I dont know why i went over to her place today.. izzit an excuse to pass her the item or just really want to pass it to her. I thought i ok with doing all these, I thought getting this done should be a problem but i think i was wrong. When i reach her place this morning my heart pump hard and fast.. the memories flash back to the moment that i used to stay over at her place.. Yes i kind of miss those feeling.. I msg her and offer to send her to sch tml, well as i expected that i will be rejected by her. I was given the answer that she stayed over at her bf's place and she will head out from there. I mean.. not hm just say u not hm la why must u talk abt him. I never qus where are you and etc... must u be that 'honest' to me or is there a hidden meaning in it. I thought i have walk out from the darkness... trying to accept the new and change but i realize that i am just trying to walk out.. I havent really step out from the 'comfort' zone. I realize nothing is holding me back.. it is just myself.. i cant get over this thing all alone. If you ask me how much love or how much hope i have in her.. i dont know.. I guess i care more than love and hope just wish that end of the day she is happy, she is doing well than i will be happy too. I guess i still need time to get this through... although is tiring but i will try.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:33 AM
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