Wednesday, November 17, 2010
"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. "
1st thing in the morning... I heared the song 'bubbly' then when i reach office.. someone send me a photos link of our office party.. i look through the photos and i found our photos. I cant help but to smile.. u r just like my coffee, which i need them daily.
Happy 'anni' my sillypig... if things has goes well it suppose to be our 2nd year. Well i am not hanging over it but just that today was suppose to be a surpise day. I have arranged with my florist way in advance to prepare your fav 15 stalks of red roses, the ideal time to send to your place. I also book a special place to spend our special night together and alot of alot of endless program for the day. But.. It will NOT happened. The gift that i made, i was thinking to give or dont give... still i took the courage to ask u whether do u want accept it. I wanna to flip through our old stuffs.. but i dont see a point doing it now because it will only be me doing all these alone. You are not there to share the joy and laughter, you are not there for me to hug and kiss. I wish to say BB, i have a secret to tell you.. 'I LOVE YOU BABY'. I only can say this inside my heart, whether you feel it anot i dunno.
Sillypig.. thank you for everthing. You make me smile endlessly all these years, although there are upz and downz during our r/s but we manage to pull it through so long. We are always there for each other without fail and i believe we shared alot of things together more then anyone else. Seriously i never regret the promise that i made to you 2years ago and 2years ago i love you deep inside, 2years later i still do. I know i cant give you a complete family, i cant fufill the most impt part of your life. We only can fufill 1/2 of the dream that we had shared together. I might be the biggest impact in your life, make you sad, insecure, lost or maybe lost confident in future r/s. If i really do, i wish to say i am sorry. I hope you wouldnt still think that loving me was the biggest regret in your life.
Will we be friends again? I cant answer this qus, do you think you can answer for me. Beside telling me the same thing over and over again that when we both have we move on, we will be friend again. My qus is when is really the right time that you think that both of us have really move on? Izzit till the day that you are getting married? Or will be the day when i am not around. I am not saying that you or me have not move on, both of us is having our new life now. I am not rushing to get back this friendship again but sometime i really wonder do you think we can talk again. I know this is a sticky issue, i dont want to go into it again. I wish to msg / email you to say happy 'anni' sillypig or maybe just wanna to say i miss you.. but nah.. i will not do that.
P.S: I am still there for you all the time, when you need me i will never say NO.
XOXO,
dumb dumb piggifed kopio lazy irritating 老雪人
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
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