Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Sitting all alone in my room, open that green snowflake box. Took those items out bit by bit, those items really make me grin. A look back from where we were before till where we are now, time really past fast. Before I took out those Stuffs I spend sometimes reading through my old post again, I feel that this time I really love her truely. Story abt us before getting together, abt us after gotten together. I bet she really found that love that she never had before and I guess this is something we will never forget. I wish that we can be like before do things we want, miss each other when we are not around.
Now things are different, she just don't want me to be around. Having me around is the last thing she want to have now. Even thought I know she is 'happy' but really how happy is she?? I will be wondering what is she doing now?? Have she have her dinner?? Did she sleep well last night?? Did she catch a cold due to the cold aircon in the room??? So many wonder but no answer.. When I drop by to say hi, I see that unhappy face that she has, I so bad, when her phone start ringing I will wonder who's that??? But I got no right to ask now..
I dunno how long this distance thingy gonna last, maybe for a few months or maybe a few years.... Back to singlehood life spending all the special ocassion alone. I know ppl always say, friend are there for u. How many friends actually remember your bday?? How many friend is really there for u when u really needed them. Maybe soon she might also forget my bday and maybe soon she wouldn't be there when I needed that so call friend. She is not that bad as what I say just that I like to put things to the worse case.
No one will ever fright over my iPod touch, no one will blame me for not giving enough attention, no one will make me ai xin zhao chan, no one will nua with me, no one to huggies to zzzz.. Alot of laughter have gone, both my room and her room are so much quiter now.. Cry over such issue??? Nah.. I done that Liao but still doesn't melt her heart. Instead it just make Me see the picture clearer and will even think more.. Wanna to msg her but always get negetive feedback, wanna to call her she also wouldn't pick up my call. Moving away from her will the best soloution for her??? Will there be a positive outcome??? I dunno but I hardly doubt so..
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
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