Thursday, July 24, 2008
The rain cried for me it was raining so heavily just like how i cried my heart out and fall asleep, i am so tired my bag are so heavy that i didnt realise that i am carrying so many things. I thought i am strong enough to take the weight but i realise that it's too heavy that it time to put it down and i really need to put it down. I wish that i can just collapsed on and floor and fall into deep sleep that when i wake up i will remember only things and people that i want to remember. I wish that all these love and lie have never happened before between us, i wish that in the 1st place i dont need to choose and make a choice out of it.
There are time that i am so used to be with someone that sometime i will call or msg the wrong person, there are time that when hear a pair of voice that naturally i will picture the person in my mind or say out the person name. The brain really work out in a funny way they only select certainly things for us to think and make us think so much that we cant do anything to prevent it. I really wish that 1 day i can just fall into deep sleep and forget about everything in the dream when i wake up i wouldnt remember all the unhappy things and carry on with my life. I know alot of people do feedback saying that why i take life or relationship so pessimistic well i think it's more to return karma cause alot of things i have done in my past relationship is coming back to me. I am paying high interests rate to it and seriously i also dont know when will i stop paying my debt but i really hope that my debt will finish too.
Sometime in life we already know what we want and we already have the answer but just dont know why we just wanna to try our luck to make it prefect. Something we just thought that things might go out smoothly but end of the day we realise that we are living in reality we are just painting the prefect picture that we want it to be. Well no point trying and keep repeating that you understand how the other person feel and dont want to make things worse when end of the day it is still back to square. Love that oscillates back and forth ultimately will meets with futillty and despair. The story of love is not important,what is important is that one who capable of love, even when one knows that love will end....
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:17 PM
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