Being lost and helpless for the past few weeks my mind and heart cant tally, trying very hard to fright for it and make sure i have harden my heart so that things wouldnt make it worse. Sometime i think being to relie on your partner doesnt make any good to yourself, when break up happened you will find it hard to let things go and you will create and more and more problem to yourself. Sometime certain time, certain place or certain things you do will remind you of those time that both of you spent together but these happy moment that meant to be kept and not letting it keep running through your mind.

Sometime holding on for too hold doesnt bring you to anyway where i think the early you let things go the better will be. Because of certain issue i didnt eat and sleep well and of cause it do affect me at work as well. I try not to bring in personal stuff into work as my job scope cant allow me to do that. I face 100 over ppls daily and i talking to them more then my bf, my mum and my dog so i cant bring in this kind of feeling into my work life. I do get myself drunk for the past few days but that doesnt help to solve the problem, the best things is when you think that you are drunk but in the fact you are not and this is where you get to see the ugly side of the world. I go no mood to go anywhere over the weekend, trying to get something done but dont know where to start. I dont talk so much to others after work, i am slow in respoone in all my reply, putting on my mask and fake smile at work. I guess moving on and seeing things in a different angle will make you understand the whole picture of the story.

i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at 6:28 PM