Sunday, May 25, 2008
It have been 1 week since huiting left us, everyone of us start to move on with life and of cause she is the girl that will always be remember in our heart. Everything we do we also count her into the picture, every now and then we still take about her bring up those happy moment that we use to shared together. Sometime i do miss her laugh and her belong then i will flip back those picture that we took together to remind myself that she is still around. Every of my friend is very concern about her especially my sisters gang, ever my work friends they know i have change alot not so out spoken anymore.
I try to remain the same not to be too affected by it but whenever i ride on xiao hong it just remind me of her, this really taught me a lesson how to treasure life and ride safely as well. Alot of people as me do i still dare to ride? I did ride as normal but of cause i do with with extra care now. I might be selling off xiao hong soon cause the more i kept it the more it will bring me memories of me and huiting. Everyone as me to be strong but i know my emo level is still very high, i am not really stable yet to accept the fact that she left us.
I hold back my tear after last thursday when i give her my last blessing, when people as me am i ok of cause i will reply yes i am but actual fact is that i am not. My mum was also worried about me since huiting left, she also feel sad because she also know who is huiting. I know she is happy now and for sure i know she dont wish to see us being sad over her, she want us to live our life as normal and also move on to the better.
My heart now is so unstable now alot of things just happen so fast and i just dont know how to crop with it. Sometimes i realise the more you want something the more you wouldnt get it, i am running out of patient, i am running out of idea and i am also running out of time. I have a terrible dream last night i dreamt that the person i that i love got married to someone and when i as why i wasnt the one the reply was i dont want to be hurt again.
I was so glad that it's only a dream, if 1 day the dream turn into real life i seriously dont know what to do. The person finally got over that angel but out of the blue come another person and everytime it happy the grinning on the face feel like the happiness will never end. 6 more months and this will decide the fate between us, all are well plan already just waiting for the day to come. I will be leaving for japan tomrrow so just take this time to clear off my mind.
you could be my unintended choice
to live my life extended
you could be the one i'll always love
you could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
you could be the one i'll always love
i'll be there as soon as i can
but i'm busy
many brokenpieces of the life i had before
first there was the one who challenged
all my dreams and all my balance
she could never be as good as you
you could be my unintended choice
to live my life extended
you could be the one i'll always love
i'll be there as soon as i can
but i'm busy
many brokenpieces of the life i had before
before you
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:51 PM
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