Saturday, February 09, 2008
Maybe my intension was wrong i shouldnt have even bother to concern about that matter when i know in the end i will still get it from her. When i received her msg today i dont know how to reply to her i stare at it for a moment and this is the only time i had never reply her msg. In my heart i was thinking i am the person who is there to concern of you being hurt and yet i get this shit from you. This is to teach me a lesson not to be too kpo just mind you own bloody business will do, i dont understand what is she trying to say in her blog when what she write doesnt seem to be like what she speak. I know that person is going to her place for dinner tomorrow so if what she wrote on her blog is refering to her than it sound so funny. I realise that this time she handle her relationship in a very different way, she lower down her pride alot just because of a woman. I guess maybe after tomorrow things will be different again, maybe she will change her mind again to be another person by giving her another chance.
I guess what dawn have told me was right, maybe i just want to prove to her that why she treat me and that person in 2 different way. Both of us broke her heart but just that i hurt her more and not really being honest with her but other then that both of us are CHEATER!!! Why there is such is big treatment between us, i didnt complain it as unfair but i just can take it as a matter of fact. I learn my lesson after looking at things in a different way i think i realise that i am tired of frighting for the things that i want and i cant hold on to it anymore my patient is up.
It time to reboot the space in my heart, getting off those virues and stop letting them to stay in too long cause it will kill the system in the long run. The box of love had already been seal up long ago and yet every sunday without fail i dont know why i still open it and read it over and over again. I wonder do you do that sometime as well , if you do that is it because you miss those feeling or is it because you just wanna to get rid of them. You know what i guess i am going to seal this box of love up again and i dont want to open them again until you next letter arrive.
10 years ago i did the same thing as what i did in the past and we lost in contact, soon dont know why out of the blue fate bought both of us back again. I didnt treasure on what is being bought to me ever thought you said i have change since the last time we met. Now after so long i am still like before never change to be more senseable, i think i am still as childish and stubborn as before. To make things easily for both of us i think i should just disappear again and just be who am i and live my life as before. Freedom is what i wish for last time when i am in a relationship, i was so in need of it that i have to lie. I hope things will be doing well in your life in future dont get into relationship so easily that is what you told me. I hope you can find someone that you can truely trust and put your who heart to her and she will take care of you for the rest of your life.
P.S : I hope you still remember this song, this lyrics...
XOXO, Sn0w_MaN
I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said "Boy, you might not understand but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none but I loved your Grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said"
Chorus:If you get there before I do don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll beBut I'm not gonna let you down
Darlin' wait and see
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me
I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her his eyes filled up with tears
And between now and then till I see you againI'll be loving you
Love, Me
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:40 AM
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