Saturday, December 29, 2007
Finally after 3weeks yesterday i went clubbing haha.... but haiz... didnt dance at all la cause i still can walk properly so only can sit there and be good. Yesterday wascah's hen night, jo arrange at st james / boiler room, not a bad place but just fill up with aunties & uncles. All sisters turn up for it haha... Cath, Jo, Jasmine, Grace, Sharon & Me... well Jo this notti girl bought cath victoria secret as wedding gift haha... ( kp will go wild on his weddding night).
I guess after so long when you didnt get to talk to the person it seem like nothing much to talk about every thought how well or how long you have know the person. I was quite happy last night cause after so long finally that person didnt pretend infront of me, she is finally herself yesterday and she behave like how i used to know her in the past. I cant assume that is still love between us but we both know there is no way to be together again. I don't know what wrong with her she is fill up with sn0wflake yesterday from head to toe, hmmm... i was not piss of but just don't feel sn0wman anymore. I didnt wish to ask much about it but i guess mostly should be from that angel la.
I behave myself last night and certainly i am so myself cause i dont nervous anymore when i see her and i dont feel as weird as compare to the past. I know she was quite sian last night as the live band wasnt so good and beside the host and cath wasnt that happy to be there. We actually talk over alot of things from my accident case to her sister's relationship and of cause certain things she have done just remind me of the past when we used to club together. I know at that moment i am living in illusion so i told myself the happy moment only last there and not more after that. Everyone over there know i defence her like nobody business cause i wouldnt let anyone hurt her or trying to be funny. I try not to be over protective cause after all we are not together and i know if i do she will avoid me.
It's weird when Jo didnt leave with us cause we supposed to share a cab back, I took a cab with her and she is uncomfortable with it. She got not much of a choice so we got onto the cab and each of us just sit on 1 of each door end. We still talk and i try not to talk about our past relationship or her current cause we will sure ended up quarrel. The cab ride was fast and seriously i cant bear to leave her i dont know why, not because i want a make up session or more but just feel like catching up with her. I crap up an excuses by asking her for supper but she turn me down, i tried again for 2nd time and she agress but i decided to let her go.
There was not hugz & kisses before she leave (i dont expected that from her), as a gentleman i usually will walk her to the lift or send her up to her place but i know she will reject me. I mean at least she bother to msg me when she is back home, well seriously she is a damn weird person she dont like to talk to me after meet up. She dont reply sms or pick up any calls, she just disappeared after that i also dont know why. I guess it still take sometimes for us to be friend again and well at least we begin to talk. In life there are certain things is too late to regret for wha you have done and is too late to apologize to the damage that you have create for the person. You cant turn back the time to rearrange your life or your relationship, you only can learn your lesson from the past. When you lost something important than you will learn to treasue what you have, no point greiving over the past we have to learn to move on.
I'm holding on your rope, Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red
Now it's turning blue, and you say..."Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, it's too lateI said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:37 PM
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