Wednesday, July 04, 2007
I feel so heavy today, heavy in the sense of metally it feel like i carry something which i dunno wat izzit. I try ot let go but how i let it go it still come back to me. Some ppls say i am strees and others say i jus think too much. Have you have that kind of feel when u wan something so badly it doesnt happen but after waiting for it to happen it finally happen but u r not happy with the end. I actually dunno why am i like that today, i feel that i am not myself today i got no mood to do things; I feel that wat i have done so far doesnt seen to be good or up to a standard level. I dunno izzit i have done too much or too little, what is enough and wat is not enough i dunno why a simple thing have to make it so messy. I like to plan, i love peace, i love to dream about future. I wan thing to be my way to be plan as wat i wan, yes i can say i am subborn or selfish but this is who i am, i am here to protect myself for being hurt, defend for my needs. I jus feel that why we have to go through all this shit stuff why can we jus be wat we wan to be. How many time in life we wan to do the same childish act all over again. How many time in life we learn how to treasure ppls around us, How many of us actually know ur friends and familes well. I doubt most of us fufil wat i jus say. I just wish that things can be so easy to handle and dun need to think so much and to worry so much too. We live onky once, there will only 1 ourselves, no clog so live ur life to the fullest, Do all the things u wan to do before it's too late.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:51 PM
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