Wednesday, June 29, 2011
If TGIW or TGIF can make u grin I wish that I could say that to u everyday. If only we have 1 more day...
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:42 AM
I lost something special, something close to my heart. I only know it today That I have lost it. I should have let go long ago but I still want to keep it, now I have lost I can't blame anyone but myself. I treasure it so close to my heart, nothing can replace it. There wouldn't be a 2nd one anymore, it is gone!!!
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:41 PM
Till this moment until now I realize that my mind is still fill up with her.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:33 AM
I dunno for whatever reason I thought abt u today.. The feeling is very strong and it jus keep repeating some incident over and over again. I realize that I am goig through the dejavu moment, it is so real that I can't remember when and where is happened.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Today I call it the DT day.. A day that flash back the memories that we had together. How we started off at old office, how we started our 1st day of sch, the feeling of she riding on greenie, how was it like after a long day after sch. When I hit on her bed after my shower, when I dry her long brown hair after her bath. I will make sure she is well taken care off before she sleep like a baby.
For no reason I broke down and cry, I ask myself why?
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:29 AM
错过了就不可以在回头，没有了就是没有了。
Monday, June 20, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:39 PM
For the past week i have been busy and uptight with my work, alot of things are out of hand. I realise that i am not a person who is well plan when it come to work. I feel that now my life is abit disorganize, i did alot of things 1/2 way here and there.. I just dont have the mood and heart to do things and just dont feel like completing it.
Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Time past really fast... it have been 1yr since she left me completely.. i cant remember how did i manage to pull through this 1yr. I keep asking myself.. what am i holding on.. why is still her.. why even when there is someone out there waiting for me but i still choose not to move on. Why am i still so nice to her.. why am i still concern and care about her? I dont know what is the reason behind for being nice to her.. but i know whenever i did something for her.. i will feel happy about it. It is nice to do something for someone that you love, you dont expect any return maybe just a smile on her face. I will give her my very best.. cause she deserve my very best.
Sometime i wonder.. will she still remember me if 1 day i am unable to be there for her anymore.. will she still remember those things that i have done for her. Will she remember those time when we were together.. those things that we have done before, those places that we have been together.
bb.. do u miss those time that we spent our very QT together.. having each other by our side and just talk anything and everything under the dark sky. Hug you around my arms and huggies monster you to sleep, you will hug that lovely snowflake to and never wan to let it go. Cover you with the warm blanket up high so that you will catch a cold, kiss your nose and head and say goodnight and i love you sillypig.
I know these are the past and she keep telling me to move on and stop living in the past. I wouldnt say that i still living in the past but being an emo kid.. i just like to bring back those memories and just smile sillyly over it.
sillypig.. if 1 day.. i really not around and cannot be there for u anymore.. pls dont forget me.. pls remember that i am that old snowman who is super naggy over u, super over concern about u. No matter what happen in future just promise me to be the happy sillypig that i always know.. that pig can laugh and smile for no reason.. that pig will do alot of silly thing.. that silly old pig who will know the secert of colorful.
Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?
Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it
So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget
We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song you can't forget itl
And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don't forget us
Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
1:55 AM
Whenever I am piss off with u, u just sort of have some way to make me grin. I dunno do I hate u more than I love u!!! Sitting at the bar alone thinking abt those good old days we had, it jus make me smile. Although is past but sometime the flashing back make me value u more.
Monday, June 06, 2011
Sometime I will wonder how r u doing?? R u happy? R u feeling sick?? Did u sleep well last night?? Sometime when the phone rang I wish that it was u.. I miss calling bb.. I miss buying u supper, miss hugging u to sleep. Sometime I wonder did I make a mistake for loving u. If we didnt start r we happier now.. Sometime when I dont see the smile on ur face my heart feel bad. Thinking that u might have a bad day or maybe he make u sad.. I cant do anything to make u happy, only can be there if u.
I learn to distance from u cause I don't want u to think that I am up to no good.. But I always here for u anytime u needed someone. I have never fail to do anything for u before or even now. My strength is to go all out for the person I concern or value the most in life. My greatest weakest is being a emo kid.. Emo enough to make the whole world sad!! I just hope that we will be in good term again.. I wish to have the chance to share the joy and sorrow with u.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
7:31 PM
we were out last week.. it have been sometime since we last met. The feeling of picking her up was abit uncertain. I was quite disorganize when i was at her place, didnt have time to pack that car. The so call barrier that we had wasnt that bad and naturally she know what was bought for her. Our body language just make things prefect.. maybe we have been together for so long, certain things are just meant to be unspoken. I am glad that she love the present that i bought for her, i know that was her fav and without thinking i ordered just for her. I will tend to look into certain detail she didnt notice, look into small things that affect or concern about her. I was afraid that we got nothing to talk about as i still think that the barrier that we have is still bothering us but to my surprise she talk really alot. I am glad that she talk and of cause me being me just be there to listen those things.
Well when she is around my heart really beat fast... i dunno whybut i still feel nervous when she is with me. I thought the feeling no longer there but i was wrong, my heart still beat for her. I got no choice i only can drink water to claim myself down, still got to bother her to help me with those. When we were dining, my heart still didnt slow down it just keeping running like those running nuts. I wish i could tell her how i feel about it, i wish i could tell her that i wan to hold her hand to claim down. I over heard about her talking abt someone to smartpig.. my mood change, my face turn black or long. I got no mood to eat, i got no mood to talk about anything. I wish to tell her that i am unable to listen to this but still her have the freedom to speak.
I keep asking myself.. what wrong with me.. what do i want? It have been already 1yr, this 1yr she is doing well, i should be glad too. I shouldnt keep being affecting by those things that she do or say. I am not looking forward for any return, not wanting anything to happen between us. Maybe i still need a longer time to adjust my comfort zone and adapt to new.
The ride hm was really silent... i understand she have a long day at work, so i dont want to bother her much too. I think she is falling sick, feeling so cold all the time. I wish i can tell her let me hug u so that i can give u some warm... i turn off the aircon, turn off the music so that she can sleep peacefully. Seeing that pig fall asleep i found the cute side of her, wish that i can see her more often in the sleepy states.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:35 AM
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