Monday, May 30, 2011
When i see him purpose to her.. it remind me of the time that i ever thought about doing that for that someone. I still remember the 1st time she changing my heart of loving her differently.. she come into my life unexpectedly.. i didnt think she will change my heart toward her. When i am certain about my feeling toward her.. things changes. I remember telling my this fren of mine about my 'purpose' plan for her.. if we work out well within 3yrs. I have confident in our r/s and seriously all my fren dont have confident in me.. they think that i still behave like before.. and warn me never hurt her..
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Because i work in travel industry i have successfully give a few couples some unforgettable blessing.. seeing them enjoying those memories that i given to them... i feel happy for them too. 1 day my fren ask me.. have u surprise her before? i told her.. yes i did.. and it will be the 1st and last for her. I feel really happy that the surprise work out.. not trying to proof that i am a great liar but at least my effort is not wasted. I also glad that i have a group of wonderful hotelier frens.. without them.. my plan will not be successfully.
Actually if we didnt break up there will be a big big surprise that will happen this yr.. this will take place not in singapore.. but is in a place where only both of us. If this ever happen it will be the most unforgettable in both of us. Well i am glad that my fren did something similer to his gf, finally he took the courage to purpose to her.. after 3yrs plus of dating.. He told me this today after his purpose.. he said: wayne i am so afraid she will reject me.. and if she really did so what am i suppose to do. I told him: it is all about feeling.. if the feeling is there she will never say no to u.
Sometime we have to decide what we want.. when someone is there for u and if u think he or she is the right person than dont think too much.. go for it. Everyone have the freedom to love.. i have see all kind of couples getting together and live happily ever after. It is all about your thinking and feeling.. she ask me before.. do u still wan to be like this in future.. i told.. let it be what it suppose to be.. if i meant to get married than good for me.. if i plan to spend my life with that someone i will.. sometime the more we want something to happen it will not happen, so why we have to pre decide what to do.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:12 AM
Everytine I am I in this semi drunk state I realize that I miss u alot!!!
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:13 AM
Saturday, May 21, 2011
My life is just like this.. feeling so lost and helpless.. I hate making decision but i have to, the decision that i have made really make me wonder have i make the right choice. I have been really busy and tired for the past week, have been working non stop and doing up my project. I was helping out at Qafe and seriously this remind me of the absolut cafe that me and her used to talk abt. The concept was abit the same.. and memories just run through my mind, seeing jo and kris it just picture out the ideal couple. Well my plan is still far from reaching and it will not be complete without other reason.
I wanna to drop her a msg this week, wanna to ask her to do the project together.. but think abt it, i decide to let her have her own time. Sometime is just somewhere, somehow u just happen to miss that someone. These few days i have been listening to the same kind of laughter, i really thought she was around.. but those are not as classic as hers. I dunno when but somehow i wish that 1 fine day.. she can just put everything behind and let be like the good old days!!!!
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
1:55 AM
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
You are just like that coffee that i need it everyday.. without you my day just dont feel good. Have we erase the fine line that we have or it is still there.. I dont know.. but let it be what it suppose to be.. I am tired of fighting.. cause it will still be useless as you will not accept what i said. Although we might be 1 step closer this sem but i hope u dont think i have any intension of trying to be funny. Being nice to you is just something i like to do, when i heard your laughter today.. my heart smile.. finally you are laughing and i finally feel that sillypig is back. I wish i could be there for you when you are tired.. wish that i can try to do something to help to out. I guess beside lending you my shoulder and ear there are nothing much i can lend you.
I just hope to see you :D and laugh as soon as i can.. cause that will be your carefree moment..
xoxo
Sn0w_MaN
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:04 AM
Dear Eggcow,
It have been 3yrs since you last left us, the memories you left behind have not been forgotten. I still remember every single moment we have spend together. Time past so fast 3yrs, these 3yrs i have not really smile or be really happy since you left us. Whenever i am sad or trouble i will still run to you to complain.. huiting.. to be frank till now i still cant accept the fact you are not around anymore.. till now whenever i see your dad hand writing love notes for you i just feel the pain he is going through. Today when i visited you i just have this strong feeling that you are around, i went sun tanning today knowing that you are that sunshine that shining with me. I visited you with a nice niu niu tin so that u can put all ur niu niu inside.. today dee never come with me.. i also didnt wan to ask her along.. she is the only one that i shared so many things with.. when i am straggling in my life without u, she pick me up and add color in my life.
I have dinner with her today.. maybe is out of kindness than i get a chance to dine with her. I am glad she is with me today.. if not i think my emo level will be very high.. although we didnt talk much but we understand.. seeing her being so busy and so tired everyday it really make my heart ache.. i really wish to tell her, if u dont might hiring me i will work for u. To me i am so used to hotel industry and i have go through more shit then her so this nothing to me. But i know it will not happen so i also dont bother to ask her. Sometime i really dont know what to say.. but seeing her i feel that she really grew up.. no longer that little girl i know 2yrs ago. No matter what i just hope my dearest eggcow can look over that dee.. be her little angel and give her strength when she is weak, give her joy when she is sad, give her love when she feel insecure.
you are always in my heart, my dearest eggcow aka huiting.
Choo HuiTing Celin 03/10/1985 - 18/05/2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:57 PM
Sunday, May 15, 2011
The devastating news from the past few 1 week have left me so sad and vulnerable. And while trying to make sense of it all is probably useless, I look around and take comfort in the fact that although the universe is reminding us of the reality of the fragility of life, it is also allowing flowers to bloom everywhere. I am looking for some sign of hopes, need some direction in life. I am lost and weary from all these 'problem' that is happening to me right now. I am just like driving down the long highway without knowing where is my end point or pitshop, there is no sign telling me where can i find my final stop. where can i find the hope and direction to the final stop or what kind of solution will be given to me. I cant back out but have to accept the fact and agree with the flow, cause everything is fix.
Crying is not a way to show that you are weak, sort of a way to express urself to accept the fact. Not to look for other to pity u but to show others that u just need some time alone. I am always strong and happy because i dun wan my frens around me to be sad, I wan them to remember with me around there will always be joy and happiness.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:54 AM
Everything was really ok till the last day at work, nothing happen at work but more abt sch. It is not abt having her as my grp mates but more abt me juggling with my sch and work time. My next job havent started but i feel stress abt it, i also dont know why am i stess over it. Maybe it is a new task for me and if i can master this new skill like how i master my travel tip, i will know how to move on next. My life is in the mess now.. everything just dont go right, it is just out of my way. I feel like giving up this sem and settle my career 1st but my heart tell me to stay on. I dunno.. i really dunno wat to do. Whenever i am lost i always thought abt u, sometime i also dunno how to express myself. All i know whenever i hear ur voice my heart feel peace & secure.. when i hear that tired voice of yours it make my heartache, i know u work hard but u need time to rest too.
Friday, May 13, 2011
哪一条牙膏 在对我傻笑 嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡 想闹就闹 好快乐少了人唠叨
蓝色的碗盘 多买了一套 我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 无辜的陪笑 才会让我能真的忘了你的好
我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉 我受不了
还在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎么熬
这么多年 早就喜欢 有你的撒娇
我想我能熬 但是至少要让我知道 你好不好
我们的小狗 食量变好小 眼神里常常显得无聊
它习惯睡觉的床位 少了一双脚 所以他常常看着门口睡不着
我在搞笑 却在最后 眼泪拼命掉
你的离开 失去多少 我计算不了
忙完了一天 突然觉得又何必辛劳 对谁炫耀
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:06 AM
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
Maybe you have a bad day this week or long draggy week hope that this photo will brighten up your grumpy week. I know i cant say much, keep wanna to be there for u but u just dont accept. When i try to go 1 step closer, you move 2 steps further. I am not in the position to say anything, as long as you feel comfortable with it. Sometime even though our exchange over sms with wasnt that friendly but still at least i know we still talk (even though is rubbish). As i say i am always there for you as a friend / pillar, i am not ur saving float (i am not in orange, white or red color). I promise no other feeling putting in just wanna to be there for u when u r troubled.. hope see that big dee smile or that listen to that evil laughter again.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
1:31 AM
The story of love is not important - What is important is that one is capable of love, even when one know that love will end...
Tuesday, May 03, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:57 PM
Even how much fun i have for my trip, i cant really enjoy without u around. Whenever i am tired i realise i got no one to lean on.. When i am sad or have a bad day i got no one to look forward too. I need to find the start and the end point..
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:03 AM
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