Monday, April 25, 2011
It too me a while to capture this beautiful moment abt mother and child. What is motherhood? being a parent is not easy especially a mother, having a kid is not easy it take patient to exchange for it. I took this shot while the mum was holding the baby walking thru the beautiful sunset. You can feel the heartwarming feeling that a mum will provide for that child, the tender loving care and being protection over the child from any harm. Sometime i ask myself have i really done my best for my mum? how much will be enough for me to give her, how i know when she is really happy? She always say 'wei ah.. stop riding ah.. it is danger to ride. U big girl liao dont let mummy nag & nag at u.' I will always agree for the sake of agreeing, i know she meant to say all these for my own good just that i dont listen.
Another breaking new for me over the weekend... bike fren (lollypop) say this on the forum on 21april: Goodbye my frens, i am going thai later :) not joining u guys tonight. I will contact u all when i am back. 22nd April, 1005am God bought him back hm, no one expect that to happen, no one was prepare. When i was on forum in the afternoon, i was speechless, i still wanna to ask him out when he is back.. and now.. i only can pray for him. He is the only son, left his mum all alone.. His mum must be very upset.. i am sure he is upset too. He say the last goodbye on the forum, last goodbye after his dinner with his mum.
I ask myself everyday... if 1 day.. that happen to me what will happen to my mum? how will she feel? what will happen to shannon?? who is gonna take care of him? how will the sillypig feel... how will my other frens feel? Sometime i am so lost that i dunno what to do... I dreamt of eggcow again.. looking thru those old friendster msg and photos we had.. i realise we miss out so much!!! if i could max out the time, do things that i should have dont long ago.. maybe i will be happier.
I dont like the feeling being at hm, i dont find peace at hm. I visited eggcow for the past 2 weekend, i dunno why but i just miss her badly. i complained so much to her, telling how much i miss her. Sillypig msg me last night wanna to make it clear that the last r/s wasnt change of heart, it is change of mind... I know, inside my heart i know u used to truly love me. I have never doubt u, i have never blame u. I wish i could escape from hm to a place where there is peace, no anger. I used to escape to sillypig hm but now.. gonna find new place to escape. When will we really talk again over a coffee session or a dinner.. when can i hear that bubbly voice and the big dee smile again!!!! When can i do the tickie me dee and let her roll again!!!
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:18 PM
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