Monday, January 31, 2011
你是否爱过
Friday, January 28, 2011
你爱他多过他爱你的人
你还记得吗
你是否爱过
他有种真命天子般的人
你还记得吗
相爱以后终于分手
分手以后又想重来
如果能重来诚实地去对待
彼此都没疑猜
就没有理由分开
如果能重来回忆当作尘埃
心不曾被伤害
就能无瑕疵地爱
但是重来
却不能保证爱的成功或失败
要重来多少次后才会明白
你是否爱过
让你日夜忘不了的人
你还记得吗
我们曾爱过
不同种类不同面孔的人
你记得哪个他
相爱以后终于分手
分手以后又想重来
如果能重来诚实地去对待
彼此都没疑猜
就没有理由分开
如果能重来回忆当作尘埃
心不曾被伤害
就能无瑕疵地爱
但是重来
却不能保证爱的成功或失败
要重来多少次后才会明白
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
1:22 AM
I wasn't thinking that she will reply in a positive way when I told her abt the gathering for cny. To me I feel that of possible she will cut down all contact with me.. Because I am her ex gf. Well even it was just a 5 -10 min SMS she just make me smile. I miss the good old days gathering with nice food and ppl around, if this time round she can't go I think I will be very disappointed. I don't hope for too much, just wish that we can gather and talk just like the good old days. I miss DT!!!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:24 AM
Today I was packing my storeroom and I found a stack of sec sch old books and files this really bought me back to the memory lane of where I was 10yr ago. As I was throwing most of the books and notes I realize that I found a few nice pieces of art pieces... Omg seriously it is damn amazing that is still in good condition. Those arts are my love item, I still remember this was given by that someone special when I 1st knew her. I shld say ya she is my 1st love.. Maybe that time we dunno what is love but just let the nature let it happen. I shld say I am very proud of her cause she is really a talented artist, I still remember her jc final yr project, to me is prefect. I simply love all her artworks, I used to think if she carry on this way to be an artist soon she will be famous. She always made my day by drawing picture, I will just grin when I see them cause I feel love. Well it is me who don't know how to treasure, we were once lost and we found bak that love. I took her for granted and ruin the beautiful love. Well now she is with someone prefect and I believe she have enough of those bad love karma and now she is having good return. Sometime I think back if 6yrs ago I never break her heart maybe now we might get 'married'. We these are fate, we can't prearrange them so we only can accept it. Someone used to tell me the only time u begin to treasure someone is when u once lost them. Once lost it is hard to find back again.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:00 AM
Someone have just reminded me that I haven't gotten over her... I told my fren well no la jus a little only, not much feelling. My fren told me if not much feeling u will not breakdown ur story into so many small detail. My fren say I have done enough let her the other half do the job... I shldnt worry for her anymore.. Is there really a timeline for love?
Friday, January 21, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:53 AM
I saw her in class today wanna to go over to say Hi but... kind of funny since so many of our classmates are around. Drop her a msg just now, i thought we might talk for awhile but in the end the msg just ended like that... I miss talking to her... I miss her by my side.. sometime i really wish that i have the courage to call her and ask her what is she doing. The feeling of missing someone is really very bad. the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. Sitting beside her and knowing that you cant hug or kiss her the feeling is worse than anything. You wanna to let her know but you know that you dont want to upset her too. Well this is how i feel when she is in class, i wish that i can tell her how i feel toward her. I miss her so badly.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
I read through some of my silly old blog, it will tickle me.. i guess the only thing i remember was the 'honeymoon' period before me and DT started.. the meetup session at NUSS, the 1st time where i 'taught' her how to drink. The east coast moment that causes the blush... and alot alot of happy moment.. YES!!! i once have them and i really enjoy the happy moment, i max out and enjoy to the fullest. Now i only can sit back and enjoy these moment cause our moment is over a new chapter is already begin. I am glad that she never regretted loving me cause i have never regretted loving her too.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
1:30 AM
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
I wish that my coffee cup is full fill up with that passion love again... Sometimes sweet, sometimes bitter... the feeling of having it in my coffee cup is just something that i needed everyday.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:36 AM
went for class yesterday thought that i will not see her... but still there is still a chance to see her (well sch is not that big) she sort of say Hi to me but i was engage in a talk didnt really response. Her image still hanging in my mind..it took me awhile to take her off my mind.. as class ended i didnt really think much abt her but someone just like to call me everytime after the class. Wendy saw her and she called me and say: Hey i saw that little girl who used to go out with us.. why didnt u send her back hm? at 1st i didnt know who she was referring to than after talking i realise is Dee.. than she still say... she is ur gf right.. u must be gentleman to send her back mah.. let her take cab alone.. I didnt mean but to cut her off.. I said to her, yes she was my gf but now.. is someone elses gf.. Didnt wan to carry on this topic for too long.. so hang up and go.. of cause in my heart i wanna to call her / msg her but still what result will it come out if i do that. Sometime i realise that knowing too much is abit upset.. cause the more u know the more u dont wan to not know abt it.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:21 PM
I dont know why i went over to her place today.. izzit an excuse to pass her the item or just really want to pass it to her. I thought i ok with doing all these, I thought getting this done should be a problem but i think i was wrong. When i reach her place this morning my heart pump hard and fast.. the memories flash back to the moment that i used to stay over at her place.. Yes i kind of miss those feeling.. I msg her and offer to send her to sch tml, well as i expected that i will be rejected by her. I was given the answer that she stayed over at her bf's place and she will head out from there. I mean.. not hm just say u not hm la why must u talk abt him. I never qus where are you and etc... must u be that 'honest' to me or is there a hidden meaning in it. I thought i have walk out from the darkness... trying to accept the new and change but i realize that i am just trying to walk out.. I havent really step out from the 'comfort' zone. I realize nothing is holding me back.. it is just myself.. i cant get over this thing all alone. If you ask me how much love or how much hope i have in her.. i dont know.. I guess i care more than love and hope just wish that end of the day she is happy, she is doing well than i will be happy too. I guess i still need time to get this through... although is tiring but i will try.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:33 AM
Sch starting time to get busy.. Tml will be going for class. Saw on the book list that she is taking the same subject with me.. Having that kind of dragging feeling.. Maybe it just remind me of those time when we used to be together go sch and go hm together.. I mean sometime after sch or work I will jus thought that I will be meeting her.. Sometime I do dial the wrong hp no.. Sometime even after go out I will tend to go back to her house.. I am like Omg.. WTF I am doing?? Of cause all these are jus too used to and tend to forget that we are no longer together. Well personally I think that there are abit of changes after I got back from mu trip but I still feel that I still depend on her alot.. Maybe like what she say time will make a different as we move on!!
Saturday, January 08, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:56 AM
Yesterday 1 of my close fren left us and be with the lord!! God I am losing lotz of frens, serious I dont know why is that so. Is God trying to teach me how to cherish and treasure ppl. I can't help but to drop her an email last night, wanna to msg her but thinking that I shld start to learn how to not to trouble ppl and dont bring my problem to them. I am glad that I still have her as so call fren, well we did truly love each other before and although this dont last long but at least we have it once. we cherish and treasure each other before and now we living with no regret. She still give me her blessing of finding a man that I really love and this will be the happy ending for everyone. Will it really be happy ending for everyone?? Well I don't know, all i know now is to get my study and career right. Whatever gonna happen it will happen so why go prearrage all this. I am so tired of loving someone wholeheartedly, I have given enough love as an output. I am not expecting anything in return but I don't wan to try it anymore. Maybe is the fear of falling on love again, Thinking that the person u love and treasure the most might stop loving u again. 1 of my ex told me this before, it is not that I don't love u anymore but it is time for me to stop loving u. When I hear that it hurt even more cause even there is love within is she still choose to stop loving me!! Well today ask my fren how much is too much?? How much is enough?? Maybe a r/s is not abt how much I give or receive but is how trueful u love a person.
Friday, January 07, 2011
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:54 AM
Even in the struggle, you are loved.
Sunday, January 02, 2011
You are being loved not in spite of the hardship, but through it.
The thing you see as wrenching, intolerable, life’s attack on you,
is an expression of love.
There is the part of us that fears and protects and defends and expects,
and has a story of the way it’s supposed to turn out.
That part clenches in fear, feels abandoned and cursed.
There is another part, resting at the floor of the well within, that
understands:
this is how I am being graced, called, refined, by fire.
The secret is, it’s all love.
It’s all doorways to truth.
It’s all opportunity to merge with what is.
Most of us don’t step through the doorframe.
We stay on the known side.
We fight the door, we fight the frame, we scream and hang on.
On the other side, you are one with the earth, like the mountain.
You hum with life, like the moss.
On the other side, you are more beautiful:
wholeness in your bones, wisdom in your gaze,
the sage-self and the surrendered heart alive.
- Tara Mohr from The Real Life
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:31 AM
时间停止在那一页, 我们即将说再见
还记得当时的感觉, 心痛却不要让你看见
回忆是唯一安慰, 短暂却如此的完美
脑海里丛问好几, 遍你的笑容我的心碎
我相信goodbye不是永远, 请给我一点时间
不要放弃我们的诺言
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:02 AM
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