Thursday, December 25, 2008
I am sorry if i dont seem to be as execited as i usually do for christmas, i try to show as much holiday cheers as i can. But it's hard knowing that this time this year and in future you wouldnt be spending it with me anymore. I try to be strong not to think about it as everyday of our life is changing, thinking about so many things i wish to share with you during xmas. I miss you so much especially when certain ppl talk about you, when your photos just flash through my computer and hp, when i see so many cow items around.
I still wish that everything was just a reality nothing have really happened before, i just miss you voice and laugh. Those time when we spent the happy moment together, although time are short but i enjoy my every single moment with you. Till now every moment is still stuck in my head, i tried to reply happy things over you but i realise that it's abit hard to do so. You take care my friend, it's my sn0wman season i wish you all the best. God Bless my eggcow!
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:06 PM
Spending alone on the train back home, looking forward for a warm shower plus a home-cook instant noodle since I didn't have my dinner. As I was about to reach my stop my phone rang, my darling called and ask me where I am. She wanna to meet me for awhile and pass me something, at 1st I wanna to reject her cause I am really tired but for the sake of love I agree to meet her. I was abit inpatient while waiting for her cause she still haven’t reach and I am very very tired, when she arrive she surpise me with dinner so I just assume is what her mum cook and she bought it over to me. I tell you I cant believe this, my darling actually cook for me to eat cause she never cook before and this is the 1st time she is cooking, I told her that I got craving for macaroni during those time when I was sick and just to make me happy she prepare and cook everything last night just for me. I was grinning from ear to ear when I saw this and that is the reason why she was so cold toward me during those times when I call her.
I just simply love her, she brightens up my night, although I was so tired after all she make an effort to make my day better. Something when we are in love every small little things that your partner done will make ur day better but don't do it as a 1 sided love. It take 2 hands to clap so when your partner put in effort, you also have to do something about it as well. Everyday when I wake up I will make a effort to make my darling day, I will tell her my secret and she know it by heart what secret I wanna to tell her. To see that smile on her face also bright up my day as well, I treasure her, love her and enjoy every of my single moment with her. She is that simple to be understand, it’s just her that why I fall in love with that her.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:28 PM
A heart which holds no barriers or obstructions
makes no judgments or threats
A creative heart
A heart which thrives on your light the light which is given to all within your path
Helping them find their way through life's journeys
A loving heart
A heart that knows no hate, but only kindred love
It touches into the far places within our soulsmaking each
And every one of us shine
I wanna be everything that you need from me
Because I’m officially yours
Always give my love to you
A journey for only the worthy and not faint of heart
Unconditionally more….
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
7:06 PM
come into my dreams my love,
come take 1 last look at me,
Touch my hand,
And tell me that you are there for me
Whisper into my ear telling me that you still love me
The word which i am unable to speak of till today.
The word which i could have left msg you by
Sending you an email or drop you a msg.
When you put your head on my back
I know that you really dont want to lose me,
I know there are alot of thought in your mind
Things which we know it by heart,
No words need to express out.
The moment of slient
Make me treasure you so much.
Leave you behind is the last thing
that I want to do.
I wanna to be your lao xue ren,
I wanna to be the one who make you
Laugh when you are sad.
Give you my shoulder to lean on
When you are tired.
Hold your hand when you are cold
Tuck you to bed through the
Dark lonely night.
Kiss you goodnight & wish you sugar
Dream through the night.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:32 AM
- Loads of communication
-Understanding
-Consideration
-Trust
-Commiment
-Appreciative
-Love
-Humor
-Honest
-Sharing
-Respect
-NO SECRETS.
All these are just the basics things that are needed in a relationship. Do not ever neglect her feelings. I mean of cause you can never please her in a way or two but at least treat her with respect is always a great deal in every relationship. If you love her and have all these basics in the relationship, then your relationship is never a burden but a gift that you will love to treasure. You will always be looking forward to coming home and be with her to spend you every single moment together.
Just remember the time and moments from how you both knew each other to the present days of your relationship . Share that moments with her, bring back the joy and laughter into the relationship. Those are the sweet memories that can never be erased or forgotten as far as the relationship is concern. Why am I saying all these? Because i realise that human relationship are so fraglie, today you say yes to the person you love then next week you decide to break up. How many times of breakup do you have to go through before fully understand what you want in that relationship, life is short why do we still want to stay on like this. The good ones dont usually come by so if you ever meet her hold on it her and never think of letting go her.
If you love that person, dont expect her to change for you. Let her be herself. Falling in love is for who she is not what you want her to be. Relationship is about interacting between both partner. Tell her what you like and what you dont like, dont dictate her life and the relationship. The more you dictate the more she wants out. Give her room and respect the privacy that she needs. Sometimes partners just want a little room to actually think and act, especially after a hard day at work. If she's not talking to you when she gets home, meaning there's something wrong somewhere. Let her rest and have a quiet time on her own. Soon, she'll sit next to you and apologise for ignoring your presence. I dont like to qus my darling too much, i will usually ask her twice about what she is thinking or how she is feeling. If the respone still the same i will give her time to think about it and let her be alone till she is ready to talk.
I told her about my way of taking care about relationship, i love to talk about things , i love to share the burden and happiness together. There are dos and donts in every relationship, but be rationale with everything that you decide whether for the dos and donts. Balance the both of them and everything will be just fine, do not over do it. Dont control her social life and dont be judgemental about her frens. That will lead to major arguments. As for me, i will usually ask her along to meet my frens, introduce her to them. Let her know my bunch of frens rather than be secretive, this is to let her know about my social life as well. My darling doesnt dictate me and the same goes for me, we know our responsibilities towards each other cause we value each other.
The bottomline is, appreciate her while u still can, you will never know when will you be able to find another good one again.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
1:11 AM
There i go got into another accident again, i DID NOT DRINK, I DID NOT TAKE DRUG, I DID NOT SPEED!!!!! THANK GOD I A M ALONE!!! I only planning to stop by the road side but i didnt see a big stone in front of me and i ran over it. WTF!!!! Last yr this time i also got into an accident and this yr i pray so hard to avoid it but still it happened. This accident really make me think so much, i mean i am so tired of going the same thingy over & over again. A beautiful weekend that i plan to spend with my darling have to be spoil by me, i plan so many thing to do witht my darling over the weekend and now she got to take care of me. She was there in the hospital with me all night and i know she is in the shocking state, i bet alot of things is running through her mind. I spent 2 hrs plus in the A&E ward before i get to see her again, my mind was totally blank i was totally worry abt her. Finally after all the check-up i manage to get her into the A&E ward, she look lost and worry and to make sure that i dun want her to be upset i crack silly joke to make her laugh.
The accident make both of us feel so important abt each other, i guess sometime both of us do have doubt on the relationship but i want to secure her i want to make her feel that these are not lie. Well my darling is very sweet she take care of me, cook for me and be there for me, sometime i wonder how will like life be if she is no longer around. Now she make a big part in my life i really dun wish that this honeymoon period will end so soon, i want it to be like that now, later and future. I dunno how long will this last but as long as my heart still follow u i will still love u & spoil u till the very end.
All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all night
I don't know how I found you
I'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hold, to keep, to share
In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world there in no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my girl
You through it all I know
That you've come to see that you're the one till the end
All my friends around me
Say you'd be gone too soon
Baby I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home
We'll always be till the end
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:33 PM
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