Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Chances are only given once, you miss it you will never get another chance again. Be happy when you know that she is happy, dont hangover the unhappy moment. Look forward and move on there are much more better things for you to do and worry about. Love you gf, dont doubt her, give her freedom. if given a chance again i will do the following for my partner. • give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
Another weekend have past and here i am end of the month again... i thought that i could hit my target for this month but still abit far apart. I am so tired of chasing the number maybe i should let it be. Went to st james over the weekend didnt actually have much fun but seriously i was so sober that i laugh my head off at those drunk ppls and seriously i really dont know how they can behave like that when they r drunk. Well another tough week to go haiz... feeling about sad over a fren just fall off with him over some stupid comment that i have made. I feed that he might be childlish enough for not taking my feedback and all he want was a prefect 10 feedback. I did my part to him and hopping that we still can be friend but he is just childlish enough to accept the fact. He rather not to have me as his friend and dont wish to talk to me in future.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Anyway whatever it's just let it be i cant really be bother about it i mean after all i am just being honest on what i am saying on his comment if he cant take it as a room of improvement than i cant do much to make him feel better. I already avoid it bytelling him thati dont wish to comment anything on his sale of items but he inssist me to do so to gain feedback on it so here base on what i have given you have to accept it or leave it.
Anyway i will be out of town again in nov and make a guess where i am heading to this time round... nah... not beach area for this month... i am heading to hongkong in nov... doing some business trip and some personally trip. Hopping to visiting that someone that i long to visit 1 yr ago which i had make my promises, but i doubt the person will agree to it as well. Anyway it's a long story why i plan to head to hongkong this time round but nevertheless i do enjoy myself in hongkong more then taiwan. I thought of that person recently and i kind of miss her when i saw her recent photos if you happen to read this just give me a call i will be in hongkong on the 15nov for the next 3 days.
My mum is kind of unhappy that i am out of town again but nevertheless i will try my best to be good the most this time round i will bring her for this trip to hongkong so that she wouldnt complain too much about it. I just kind of miss those time when you have someone to relie on especially when i was in hosiptal those time. Well something in live we are dont have the right to choose on what we want the just come as it is. If i could turn back the time what will i wanna to to do or what should i choose to say. I really dont know but sometime i do feel that am abit lost in my life i dont really know what is the best for myself. Fate will bring you together when it's time to meet the right person in life.
xoxo
Sn0wMaN
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:40 AM
I have been clubbing over the past 2 weekend last weekend and yesterday night, we club till super early in the morning like 5-6am. I really damn long time never been so happening already and i realise that i cant take it any long, too old for these shit. Those friends of mine are really mad drinker and 1 after another really cant stop and prevent them for letting me drink. I enjoy those clubbing session as such that i can be a drunkard photographer and take all the funny photos when ppls are drunk. I feel that i gain alot of weight after drinking so much alcohol in 2 weeks, i feel that sometime when i taste water or some other soft drink it will remind me the after drink taste. I was feeling happy and sad yesterday, happy is because finally i got 80% of my vodka collection in 1 week, sad is because i suppose to meet up with that someone but last min some ppls just change of plan to zouk. I filled up myself with the disappointed heart heading to zouk and expect just another drinking session with a bunch of crazy monkey but soon i receive a phone call from that someone asking me whether am i on my way down as all of us are there. I repeat what that person say all of you are there and that incl you as well, the reply was ya what wrong quickly get your butt here at zouk. I am so gald to hear that lovely voice that bring laughter to the night, soon welcome drink for me was cosmo then follow up cowboy shooter and 24 shots of apple sours and soon i also dont know what else i have. I think it incl a few jugs of whiskey dry, vodka red bulls, some bottles of beers and etc....
Friday, September 12, 2008
Everyone there are all in the 1/2 drunk mind and start having there photos affairs, i really cant stand them being so bitchy and showing their true colors. Well that incl me as well having lotz of photos affairs with everyone and of cause never forget able that someone also. NEVER TELL A SECRET TO A MAN ever they can keep it better then woman, it's because when they are drunk they just simply let out the secret to the whole world. I really dont know what to say when that person know about some stupid secrets that i have i mean we are not together so that person also dont bother to as much about it as well. I dont see the point to defence for myself cause after all it's the fact and nothing to hide about it.
I guess i dont wish to hangover it for too long if end of the day it meant to come back to me it will come back to me, i am so tired of playing mind game and hate guessing on what is on your mind. I dont want to guess and guess and end of the day i lost the game to myself, anyway i already know the answer just that sometimes i choose to cheat myself over such thing. I can be sure that i that i can make you happy as even but i am sure that with me around you will smile more.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:48 AM
Today i feel abit lost in my life i actually woke up in the morning and i dont know what to do, i feel that i am hold back by something/someone. I feel that i have something that i havent do and i must do or someone that i wanna to meet but i dont get to meet. My job is giving me a major down turn and i am hold back by whether i should change my job. This have been leaving on my mind for quite something already, i mean i am happy with what i have at this moment but at some point we have to fright for what we have if we dont fright end of the day you are out of the game. Tomorrow is my exam seriously i havent study yet, kind of not in the mood to do anything. I feel that i am not young anymore i need to settle down alot of things in life, i can be stay on my childish carefree life throughout the next 20years.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
I used to think that this is my carefree life i live for myself not for other, i dont need to change my social life to compromise my others. I feel that i am abit wrong if i dont change for others then others also wouldnt change for me as well. Something i am abit tired of living the same life doing the same things over and over again. The same answer and the same mistake that is alwayas repeat something i dont even know why, given a chance again where do you want to fast forward to or where do you want to rewind to. I am lost really lost of words and action, i really need to find the right person, right place and a right mind to pieces up everything. Not all things are given 2nd chance, dont take peoples and things for granted. Watch your limited and be understand, put yourself in the other person's shoes to understand better.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
10:09 PM
Afterwards, I finally learned how to love
Sunday, September 07, 2008
It's a shame you disappeared into the sea of faces.
Afterwards, though all the tears, I finally understood
That you can only miss somebody once.
White petals of orange flowers fall on my blue pleated skirt
"I love you," you softly say
I lowered my head and smelled the burst of fragrance
That eternal night; 17 years old, midsummer
That night you kissed me
Letting me in my future days, when I feel like sighing
To always remember that day's starlight
That love then, why was it so simple like that?
And also, why when we are young
Must we let those whom we love be hurt?
On this similar deep of night, are you the same?
Also feeling the quiet hurt of regret?
If at the time we could have been less stubborn
We would not feel regret now
How are you remembering me?
Does it bring you laughter or silence?
These past years, was there someone who could let you not be lonely?
It will never happen again.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
1:38 AM
Saturday, September 06, 2008
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you're around your friends.
• be the one to take her hand, don't make her reach for you
• be the one to call her, don't make her always call you
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• write her letters.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she's important.
• let her take all the photos she wants of you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:00 PM
Well finally weekend arrive and of cause ppls who read my blog start qus me about my life... well maybe i am not fated to find someone to love after leaving that diva. I guess i am still paying back my bad karma so yup have to face the fact of doing that. Well maybe to me every person who have a connection with me i will but in easily 100% whether is a fling or a relationship but i realise that this stupid cause me alot of problem .
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
I am not up to the extend of saying that i really love that person perhaps this is the way i treat ppls. We met up just now the feeling was really uneasy, we sit side by side in class and didnt talk to each other for about an hour. I dont know what to say and i dont know how to start off the talking also but in the end we still manage to talk. I dont want to talk about what happened anyway after all it's just a fling and i am taking it easy.
Exam is round the corner havent been really starting to study yet alothough F&B is mystrong point but still have to study for that. I am abit lost with what i am doing now... work wise have been really smooth at this moment but whether will it be as smooth as it is in near future i really need a break.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
6:38 PM
I thought that wee could meet up today since you suggested it over but didnt expect that it will turn out to be a call off. I dont know izzit an excuses or izzit true that you are not feeling well. I am really affected by you seriously why must you spoli my morning, i really hate ppls to spoli my morning cause this is my start off day. I really hate the most is i dont ever understand you i dont know know what you want out of it. Maybe it's me who just want to tag on you and by guess that you just dont want to be tight up with or maybe you still cant get over your gf. I am abit confuse and lost i really dont know what to do, maybe i think it's good to just put things aside.
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day and make it okay
I miss you
I've never felt this way before Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
they smell just like you I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
Weh you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day and make it okay
I miss you
We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were,
All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I do,
I give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me,
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone the face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day and make it okay
I miss you
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:19 PM
沒有一百分的另一半 只有五十分的兩個人付出真心 才會得到真心 卻也可能傷得徹底保持距離 就能保護自己 卻也註定永遠寂寞通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人 才是真正愛你的人有時候 不是對方不在乎你 而是你把對方看得太重冷漠 有時候並不是無情 只是一種避免被傷害的工具為你的快樂而快樂的 是朋友為你的難過而難過的 就是那些 該放進心裡的真正的好朋友 並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題而是在一起 就算不說話 也不會感到尷尬朋友就是被看透了你 還能喜歡你的人.
A friend of mine send me this, and i find it so meaningful. Well we exchange sms yesterday and the person have been showing symptoms the nothing have happen before. I expected a open relationship / fling between us already, haiz... once again i got the bull eye. Well i guess maybe i am not suitable for relationship must only stay in fling and trying get out of it. Well the person knew that i wasnt very happy about her meeting up with her ex well i got nothing on the ex just that why keep meeting up when end of the day things still remain the same. If you dont try to give up and move on you will never know what is new out there, i am not saying that i am the right person to be choosen but at least make urself clear. She guess i that i am upset over it and she make clear that after all it's just a friend bugt she just dont get what i am trying to say. Well as i expected no new after that, actually i am abit bother by it but at least i know that this is an open relationship so there is give and take. The rule of a fling is never cross over the line and ask about personal stuff like how's ur day ur A or what time you came home last night. Freedom is the keyword and keep your word by not asking too much and just pretend that nothing have happen and behave like normal.
I told candice about it and she told me if a person really ready to take up the relationship she will naturally open up to you, but if she is not no matter how much you do you will never enter in. Take it easy if you choose to stay then be patient, if you choose to leave then let go quick before you fall in too deep again. Well i think in the end i still dont really deserve someone to love maybe that is diva curse, all i can do is to sit here waiting patiently....
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
10:52 PM
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