Sunday, March 30, 2008
Everything was just like yesterday good memories are good to flash back sometimes with good pals around. I was at Jas's house with the sister gang to view cath's wedding video clip, too bad sharon is not here guess she should be out of town. We have a great laugh about our stupiditly and of cause it's a wonderful and ungettable wedding to remember. Time prove everything and time also help to change everything as well, everyone do have an unhappy memory behind and something we were wondering why at that moment do we do should silly things in life. Do you know how much time you have wasted just to quarrel or to be upset about some stupid thing or ever worse thinking about things that you should think about. Sometimes i feel that i didnt max out my life well, i quarrel with friends and familes, i think about stupid things like getting back a relationship which is not possible to do so agin. Moving on is not easy, recoving from a hurtful relationship is not easy as well but we cant just sit there and think and wait. If you dont learn to help yourself to move on than it's very hard for someone to help you, it's because you cant pass you personal test how are you going to face others. It doesnt help just by saying that you have forgetton about that person or that incident because after all you are still talking about it. If you have really forgetton about it you wouldnt ever bring such a topic up since it hurt you so much. It's not point think how happy is your past relationship, but you must think about how happy is your life now. You have to be strong prove to that person that life without him/her you still can move on as happy as before. You can give up the forest just because of a tree so take it as it's a passerby a learning journay to learn a lesson. There is no right or wrong in it just that you are to know how to compromise it well. If you can see future in both of you pls dont bother to try it out cause within 1month things will turn sour. Certain ppls is only good to be kept as frens and certain ppls are only to be love, i dont really believe in being fren after a relationship. If you can make him or her happy just let them go dont make them suffer for long term, give you full blessing to them ever thought u wish that the person beside was you.
The Bottom Line
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Do you want a relationship to go deeper? Don't push this person. Give them time.
In Detail
Do you want a relationship to move to a deeper, more committed level? The other person might be getting close to being ready for that -- but you have to treat the situation gingerly! Do not push them, or try to convince them of what they want -- they have to come to the decision all by themselves. If you want to get closer to someone, you have to be true to who you are. Don't use top-secret information to make an impression on them. Just be yourself. Without really trying, you manage to impress exactly the right person in exactly the right way. Things should start to look brighter and brighter as this relationship deepens, so expect the best!
I was just reading some Astrology thingy and here are some of the detail of what they say about my day, i was in a really good mood today ever though something didnt go well as what i plan. I am happy because 1st i manage to wake up as early as 10am today and i drag myself to sun tanning... hehe now i am abit tanning. 2nd i finally got my Sn0wflake tattoo done yesterday and it's very pretty and i really love it. 3rd i sleep really well last night ever though it's just a short sleep i have a beautiful dream. 4rd today is little jayden's pre birthday celebration and finally someone who didnt get to contact my families member for a very long time came by today.
Just finally writing a very long email, an email which i suppose it quite sometime back, i didnt start out then because i dont know how to start and i dont know izzit right to write that email. I think through it for very long and i decide to show hand my card, i have nothing much further to lost this is all that i have so whatever it is just say it out. I know now is abit to late to say what i want or what i wish to say but at least i manage to do it and i have no regret in future. I dont expect thing will do well between us but at least i say what i should said to you.
When you are back at my house yesterday you just bring lotz of joy and memories to my mum and my other families member, my sister is happy to see you and of cause dont forget about your ICI dulex dog... I am sorry if my mum ask too much qus about when you coming over and etc.. i didnt tell her about the break up but i guess my sister does told her before. You know you are important in my families that why she keep asking you and being concern about you. She treat you like one of us and of cause she want the best between us, she didnt ask me about how am i support to make things better but i believe is she is praying that things will turn out well.
I dont want to push you into any decision cause it take time to think over it, some more it's not a easy tesk to do that . I cant do anything much i cant do any thing further i am working hard on it and praying hard everything to make things true. I hate to see you sad, i hate to see you cry and of cause i hate the most to see you being helpless and i am not there. I want to be the person who is able to be there for you at your most helpless point, i want to be there to share the joy and happiness with you. I certainly want to be the one who make coffee for you every morning and spare you 1 hour of your own time with your dearest newspaper. I want you to be happy that is the most important thing in life and certainly i am trying to be happy as well, no matter what happen let me be there person who is there for you whether you need someone to talk to or someone to lend you a shoulder to cry on or ever you need some one just to be beaten up. I am always there for you no matter what.
好冷
雪已经积的那么深
merry x'mas to you
我深爱的人好冷
整个冬天在你家门
are you my snow man?
我痴痴痴痴的等雪
一片一片一片一片
拼出你我的缘份
我的爱因你而生
你的手摸出我的心疼
在天空静静缤纷
眼看春天就要来了
而我也将也将不再生存
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
8:23 PM
1) It's good to hear the happy voice again, i am glad that you are happy
Friday, March 28, 2008
2) Finally it's weekend i can sleep peacefully
3) Tomorrow is shopping fest so it's time to spend $$$$)
4) Sn0wflake tattoo will arrive tomrrow
5) I think i got addicted by lego
6) I am cutting my hair tomorrow
7) I am not selling my rvf due to long story
8) My school starting on 3rd May 2008
9) I am on leave will be back on 1st April
10) I hope to wake up early and go sun tanning soon
When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon i will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be thereYou've got a friend
If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let themYou just call out my name
And you know wherever I amI'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fallAll you have to do is call
And I'll be thereYou've got a friend
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:12 AM
This week i am the most good girl on earth i have been so awake and being so non alcohol for really long it's also quite good cause you will actually think clearer as compare when you are drunk. Haiz... this week havent been a good week for me, hearing something that i dont wish to know, quarrel with some group of idiot in the forum and the best thing is my poor eggcow got into accident today. I feel quite painful of what eggcow is going through cause i been through more painful process then her, i guess riding a bike there is always a risk to take.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
This week is emo week, my emo level goes up really up but really got to thank you my whole bunch of friends that being there for me. I am sorry that i am not being myself for the week due to some personal stuff it actually affect me quite badly. ED & Alicia thank for being there for me and understand my stupid problem, we really take turn to become emo ah... haha... :)
Well April is round the corner it should be a new start for me cause got some much plan in hand already.
1) selling of my RVF by this sat
2) getting my new tattoo by this sat ( make a guess what am i going to get)
3) going to study in may so this sat going down to make payment
4) time to go shopping, havent be pampering myself to do it for so long
5) It's lego day.... but some to keep in store play it when i am sad or bored
6) SAT IS A SHOPPING DAY....
7) Sunday, celebrate Jayden Ng 1 month old
8)next friday dinner with sisters gang @ harbour front
9) st james with whisk, eggcow,jameson
10) team building @ pulai spring
YEAH!!!!! WELL PLAN WELL PLAN~~~ *CLAP CLAP* :) I hope everything goes well with the plan and everything should be good. It's time to make life better for myself, should have stop wasting time since $$$ cant buy them.
I am glad that ppls around me is getting better especially sharon... i am glad you are back to your old self dont let joan call you tofu brain again k. Be the bao that we used to know, be the bao that can bring joy & laugher to us. Life is yours choose something that you are happy with dont always just stuck that the road is still long for you to move on. I am still in learning process so i got no right to say that i am moving on but i am trying cause at least i bother to try.
Smile, without a reason why
Love, as if you were a child,
Smile, no matter what they tell you
Don't listen to a word they say
Cause life is beautiful that way.
Tears, a tidal wave of tears
Light, that slowly disappears Wait,
Before you close the curtain
There is still another game to play
And life is beautiful that way
Here with his eyes forevermore
I will always be as close as you remember from before
Now that you're out there on your own
Remember what is real and what we dream is love alone
Keep the laughter in you eyes
Soon your long awaited prize
We'll forget about our sorrows
And think about a brighter day
Cause life is beautiful that way.
We'll forget about our sorrows
And think about a brighter day,
Cause life is beautiful that way
There's still another game to play
And life is beautiful that way.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
1:21 AM
Finally i cant take it anymore, i cant keep on pretending to smile and thinking that nothing have happen. I make ppls listen to my problem because i want someone to let me her lending ears, i dont care after that do they understand what am i talking about but i know if i dont let it out i will be worse. I try alot of ways not to think about it and finding things to do jsut to avoid the thinking, when i am sad i will start building up lego to make myself happier but this time again i did it on my own. I finally broke down and cry just now, having a mind set on telling myself to move on and dont think of anything anymore. The love that we shared wasnt there anymore, no matter how much affort you put it in after all it doesnt change the fact of what it is now.
Monday, March 24, 2008
I have already given my last words and done my part, i am lost i really dont know what to do and how to move on. I throw my temper at you because i want to get attention from you, I always try to get drunk because i dont wish to think so much just hope that you can be by myside. When i have plan for holiday the 1st person i think was you and no one else, when i have trouble the 1st person i wish to call was also you. When i have trouble at work i wish that i could just call you and tell you about my problem. I have always bring you to attend any of my families event or any of my friends parties because i am proud to have you by myself. It's my job to wake you up early everyday for work or for school, it's my job to make you coffee and bring you newspaper as you have a hard time at night take care of me and shannon.
I can say that you are the prefect soulmate that i ever had, you shared the joy and sadness with me and being there for me without fail. You pick me up at my most down point and you change me to another person who know what is life. I am nothing as compare to anyone, not even someone to be pity with love and there you are giving me unconditionally love and trust which it suppose to be prefect but i just dont treasure it. Lie and honesty are not suppose to blend it together they dont go well at all but i just simply dont understand the meaning of lie and the meaning of honesty till i being to lsot someone that i really love.
The precious chances so given so many times till my 10 little fingers and 10 tiny toes are short of it and in the end after using up all the chance i still dont get it into my nutshell brain. I guess perharps my thinking that i might get a chance again cause it's always the same mistake that is being repeat over and over agian. When i being to be honest the final nail was broken, it's over between us that was the last words that was said to me. I knew no more those sweet things anymore and no more phonecall, i feel scared and confused at that point thinking that why when i decide to be honest everything start to turn bad.
I have alot of changes in my life before we broke up, i have just change my job, i have just started my night classes. I have alot alot more and at this point i am stuck because you are not giving me anymore direction. I try not to let this affect me but after all it does affect me alot alot and i cant see the purpose in life. I guess you make a big impact in my life sometime i really dont know how did i move on for the past few years.
I know you are also not doing well and you a strong outside trying to pretend that everything is good. I know deep down in your heart you still love her alot if not you wouldnt avoid me, i can see that she make a big part in your life that why you feel so sad over this. All i want to say is there i am always here for you if you needed someone to talk to anytime just give me a call. You dont be so stubborn over it cause it's not good for health the more you keep it the more you feel like letting go, sometimes you wish to share but i can tell that i am not the right person to do so.
till love fades you will understand to value every
wonderful scenery but he has already left
till you are convinced, he's already gone and has no recollection of you
the ultimate you start a passage of struggle
you really love him, why not keep him back
why not reveal your mind's thoughts
you profoundly love him and everyone knows that
you really love her why not keep him back
is it there's two sides of him that you profoundly
thus you are reluctant to let yourself be entrenched deeply in
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:02 AM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
你最近不说话
怎么了 为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱 我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
一次我们都能很幸福
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
5:44 PM
Waiting for you patiently is what i usually do whenever you are late, i dont know why but it seem like whenever i waiting for you when you are late the time seem to past really fast. I guess time really past fast when you keep thinking about that person you are waiting for.
Monday, March 17, 2008
The dinner was great, nice resturant, good food and of cause with good dining partner as well, i havent see her being so happy for quite sometimes and her smile was really great. We do make some small talk about everything under the sun and i just let her to decide on what is for dinner.
She lay her rule on the table and having no rights to speak but just to follow, she make things very clear and she make sure her plan dont goes wrong. I took a long time to choose her present and by promise her that that will be her last present from me to her. I hope she do like the present that i have choosen but haiz.. please dont compare me and that person. People do change and the heart changes as well, she wouldnt be with a person when she got no more feeling for anymore. I guess she is always subborn on her decision and nothing will change her mind ever thought you might be the sweetest person on earth.
I walk her home after dinner not much of a things to talk about and to make things better i try to avoid talking about the past things and also her relationship. It will be better for us to just talk about other things, joan was kind of worry about her thinking that i might do anything to her or she mind do silly things. If things is mean to be your it will be yours, if it's not yours no matter how much you try you wouldnt get it as well.
It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."
We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."
I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.
It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:46 PM
Finally i make up my mind i decided not to go phuket bike week anymore, it was a terrible bike trip on sat and i swear that this will be my 1st and last trip with them. I dont wish to die at the age of 23 and unable to enjoy my life, i guess what whisk and james advise was right i was lucky enough that i havent confirm going.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
This week i have been really good i only drink on wed and sunday cause wed was constance'bday + it was her last day with RCI also. Haiz... this girl finally decided to leave after so long and haha.. she decided to further her study so i am happy for her. Wed night was quite a nightmare for me i was at thumper with the constance group and haiz.. it was latin night that day and everyone was dancing salsa all the way. I really hate salsa cause i cant bloody dance at all, the funny thing is that i was near the dance floor talking to my friend then suddenly this old man suddenly came over and ask : Hi lady can i have a dance with you? I was like huh... erm... i dont know how to dance salsa. He reply to me: oh.. ok i also dont know how to dance. I was thinking Fuck la if you dont know how to dance than ask me to dance for what. I manage to get the rest to leave that latin place after all drink, drank, drunk session. My poor constance got drunk by waterfall and 6 shots but sorry girl i cant help you can is your bday!!!!
Zouk was nothing better as well the crowd is getting more and more each wed night... everyone is getting more and more retro... ever at 12-1am still got lotz of ppls out there on the dance floor and every single corner of the club. I cant really move around and i got bloody stuck somewhere out there haiz... but no much of a choice cause my friend just simply love there. I was doing my lending ears job recently, 1st is ed than follow by alica.... haiz... 2 emo person than + me 1 more no wonder so click to drink everyday and night.
Ed it's time to move on although i am not doing it to myself but no point holding on to her whren you know the answer long ago, love and treasure your current gf k.
Alica life is full of up and down forget about that ASS**** Mr black he is just a man who dont worth your tear, long ge will be a much better choice then him so stop wasting your tear and kill your brain cells by thinking when you want to get back anot.
I nothing much better everything things still remain the same, my mind is set on that 1 person but i dont see any future at all. Everyday of my life still move on but the happiness that i used to enjoy so much doesnt feel the same anymore. The most painful thing on earth is seeing the one that you love the most is loving someone else but not you. The most heartless thing your partner can do to you is to say I love you but they dont mean it by heart, if they do they wouldnt bear to break you heart.
How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away;
find comfort in pain,All pleasure's the same:
it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say,
but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words:
it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
5:08 PM
I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,On you I depend.
I'll cry on your shoulder.You're a friend.
You and I have been through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.
I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,I'm a friend.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:01 AM
Sometimes you are as cold as an iceberg, sometimes you are as hot as the summer. I cant simply understand what you want, i am trying very hard to be patient but sometimes it just put me off. I cling on so tight that i cant hang it any longer, i try not to rush that but my mind just cant slow down. I try to believe that there is no future at all but still in the end it lead be back to illuision and keep on dreaming. Maybe is just me for not waking up from where it stop at but sometimes my mind will tell me to move on and forget about waiting.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
I am tired of waiting and wondering, it have been long really way too long, How long? uncountable days, i have lost track of time...
Missing it so badly that sometimes make me cry, loving you so dearly that i wish to spend my every single day with you.
I dont know how long more to go, i dont know what is to do next. What make me keep move on is looking forward to the next meet up session if we have. I dont deny that sometimes i do find execues to meet up with you cause whenever i do that it actually mean that i miss you badly. I know you just simply hate meeting me and if you can prevent it you will sure do so, i guess in your mind you really hate to responding to my smses and emails .
How long more you want to hate me ? how long more you wish to avoid me ? How much more do you think you can take all these ? Will there be an answer to every thing that i ask? I really dont know.... When i am into something i am as subborn as anyone else i wouldnt give up so easily that apply in career, study and relationship. I need to sleep not feeling well recently, i am going for bike trip tomorrow hopefully it's not raining.. Love actually very simple it's how you handle it, it's human that make it complicated. When is mess dont blame love, you have to blame each other cause true love take both parties to understand and work it out.
The dumbest decision that
I made that I ain't proud of, a few hours that meant
Absolutely nothing cost me your love..
I gotta live with regret, deserve to get what you give,
Now you won't listen to nothing that I'm saying.
Rode passed your house for hours,
Just to feel close to you..no cards, no gifts, no flowers, could get me back with you
Your kiss, your touch, girl you know
I'm missing it
But you got my heart inside a prison, listen....
Girl you know that I love.
With her that was lust..
It shouldn't have happened
I know I messed up...
One phone call started this whole thing now...
Look at the damage..
That i have done
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:34 AM
I love the process of Drink,Drank,Drunk but i certainly hate the most of being 1/2 drunk.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
I hate the feeling of having a heavy head in the morning
I hate the feeling of wanna to puke but you cant
I hate the feeling of drink plain water that taste like vodka
I hate the most now is drinking ice lemon tea cause it just taste like long island tea
I HATE peoples stepping on my LEG FEET
I hate going to drink from wed - sat
I hate going home at 4am every wed - sat
I hate being so sleepy after drinking session
I hate being late for work everyday
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:10 PM
Finally my leave is approve and now i have to decide whether i want to go for my ride up to phuket, i have consult alot alot of ppls and of cause 99% of the ppls that i have consult as k me not to go and seriously i think actually in my mind i think i already make up my mind whether i want to go anot. I guess by asking i jsut want to ask for assurance or trying to make someone to agree on what i am doing. I am lost and confused i dont know what is right and what is wrong, i need you badly now to guide me through this. I guess only you can chance my mind on what i am think , not much time left, tell me how and teach me to move.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world
Cause you don't love me anymore?
Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when I lost your love.
I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everything's the same as it was.
I can't understand, no I can't understand
How life goes on the way it does
Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:08 PM
Little Jayden finally arrive on 06/03/08 it was a tired day for my mum as she have to rush to the hospital to take care of my sister, i actually didnt knew about it until late in the evening when my dad told me that my sister is in the hosptial. I was kind of surpise but also cant be bother must as i know she is suppose to due anytime from now, well i actually fall asleep while waiting for the news to arrive. I was kind of funny when my dad told me ok the baby is out and my first answer was finally ah... I did told alot of people aroud me that hey little jayden is in my house and of cause the crying sound have never stop since yesterday morning. Shannon is really a super 1 kind of kpo dog, he just cant stop walking around when my mum and sister trying to stop the baby from crying. He is as busy as my mum and the cute and funny thing he does is when the baby cry he will peep over and see why he cry. He give me a kind of feeling that he wanna to secure or stop the baby from cry but he just cant help with it. He also make me very busy cause the baby cry almost every 2 hours and even in the morning like 4-5am and when shannon is awaken by him he will bark at me to open the damn door for him to go out. I cant leave it open beause of the damn baby sound + i cant leave without my aircon. I slept at 6+++ this morning all thank to shannon and the little monster, i seriously hope that he faster grow up and life will be much better for me.
Monday, March 03, 2008
Today went suntec for shopping and seriously the I.T fair is kill me, i know the traffic will be bad so i decided to take public transport down and it's just as bad as the normal traffic out there. The crowd for the train is worse than every morning when i take train to raffles place, I really hate it so much that if i can avoid i will sure wouldnt want to go. I was planning to get diva's bday present and my dig camara and it told me almost 1 hour just to get to ciry mrt station. The I.T fair was horrible it was like everything was free or it was like a battle field when you can see walking path at all. I cant ever stand to walk 1 round and i decide to leave the place and shop for diva's present. I am a person who cant deicde on what i want so seriously i hate buying present but i have to but it and every year in march my brain cells will go down by 50%. I walk the whole city hall area and after consulting all the sales girl i manage to get something for her, i hope, i guess, i assume she will like it.
I spend quite abit today and feeling so sian cause it's only start on the month and i still got 20 days more to my next pay day. Hahaha... well but after all i am happy on what i have purchase hmmm... 1st is diva's present, 2nd sn0wman new camara ( bought it at gain city at a reasonable price) , 3rd snowman's lego and lastly i bought a book ' P.S I love you ' well that book is quite different from the movie but i enjoy reading. I dont know when will i be meeting her but hopefully things do goes well when we meet up, i just hate that kind of attitude when she dont pick up my call or reply my msg. I am still quite stress at work my boss are still not really with what i am doing but still i cant help to make further improvement. I just hope that she can be there to listen to my sorrow or my problem, I just kind of miss those time that she is just a phone call away. I guess i am so used to calling her that sometime i might just dial the wrong number, i dont know how long will this crazy things last but certainly i dont wish that it will be too long either.
I dont wanna leave you here all by yourself
I just wanna let you know i'm there for you like noone else
I dont wanna drift up to another place
I just wanna lay here in your arms with your hand on my face
So lets not ever tell the moon about the sun
I'll keep hearing love songs, hoping every wrongs undone
Its foolish but we've only just begun
I dont wanna stop this, all my walls are caving in
I wanna give you something worth living for
I wanna tell you this and so much more
Your my everything
My universe Im so mesmerised by your serenity
Hopefully you'll take me there inside your dreams
Just like all the leaves im falling over you
Its so unbelieveable the airs so true
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:30 AM
For the past 1 week beers, martell & green tea are my good friends have been spending my weeks since dont know which friday hopping around at ice colf beer, paulner, alley bar, zouk, dragonfly and some chinese KTV pub... kao.... i really dont know why am i doing that but dont worry what i have done i didnt ride at all. I still honour my words of not drink and ride cause i seriously know how bad it will turn out to be . My leg still badly in pain cant really walk properly and my arm still hurt sometimes haiz... when will it be recovering i really got no patient waiting for it.
Work havent really be a good thingy for me feeling more stress then before, acting as a happy go lucky person but deep inside i am fearful and insecure. I am feeling pretty lost something i need someone to give me a direction of what to do, where to start and how to move on. I am trying to be strong and not asking for help cause i wanna to slove it on my own but i think all what i can do doesnt seem to last long soon i'm going to give up.
I might be holding back my phuket trip cause quite of numbers of friends ask me not to ride up and i do think about it as well cause of safety. I seriously dont wish to die on the road la i want to die also die in a better way. I might be taking up another course again by end of april haha... study again haiz... my mum want to kill me liao cause everytime i study but i have never bring home and cert for her to see hahaha... Anyway still have a few days for me to think about it hopefully someone will help me to make up my mind on what i want.
Highway run into the midnight sun
Wheels go round and round
You're on my mind
Restless hearts sleep alone tonight
Sending all my love along the wire
They say that the road ain't no place to start a family
Right down the line it's been you and me
And loving a music man ain't always what it's supposed to be
Girl you stand by me
I'm forever yours faithfully
Circus life under the big top world
We all need the clowns to make us laugh
Through space and time
Always another show
Wondering where I am lost without you
And being a part ain't easy on this love affair
Two strangers learn to fall in love again
I get the joy of rediscovering you
Oh girl you stand by me I'm forever yours
faithfully
faithfully I'm still yours
I'm forever yours
Ever yours faithfully
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:15 PM
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