Tuesday, January 29, 2008
SM: I'd pick her over any girl i'm with
SM: I say SB today
SB: I say SM today
SM: It seems like its been forever
SB: I wonder if SM still cares
SM: She look better than before
SB: I cant stop staring at her
SM: I asked her how things were going
SB: I asked about her new girlfriend
SB: She's probably really happy now
SB: She couldnt even look at me
SM: I told her i miss her
SB: She didnt mean it
SM: I meant it
SB: She doesnt mean it
SM: I love her
SB: She love her new girlfriend
SM: She held her hand for the last time
SB: She gave me a friendly hug
SM: Then I went home and cried
SB: Then I went home and cried
SM: I lost her
SB: I love her
I went for new job interview today i also dont know why what make me want to get new job but i am not really happy with my current one. I mean my bosses are nice but some management ppls really dont use brain to work they just work by ppls ask them to do it than do it, sometime i wonder do they know what are they doing anot. I spoke to xueren yesterday about what happen but as usual she wouldnt tell me much about it. I am quite a kpo person so of cause it's time to use my networking by asking around lor, i know she still love karyn and i think this time is hard for her to let go. I guess is the memories and the sweet talk that do the part, i mean we used to be like that also but that was the past. I guess if you really love somebody so much you wouldnt think of leaving that person, whatever you do never let go never forget, never lose the person you love because you might lose the best thing you ever had. I dont why sometime is just so hard for us to let go something, someone once say this to me 'If you cant get someone of your head, maybe they're supposed to be there'. It sound quite true to me cause i wanna to get the person out of my head but after so long it's still abit hard. Sometime you do forget cause some happy moment replace than but this doesnt last long after all you are still back to the start point.
All i need is just 1 more chance, 1 more kiss, 1 more night to show you what you mean to me. One chance to spend the day with you & to show you how was so alike. One kiss to prove more than just friend & one night to hold you tight. Life is full of secret and lie so when get screwed over dont act surprise. So tonight i sit and pick apart you picture and over analyze your words the truth is that i have never fallen so hard. I alwasys remembered that she is the girl who always smile even when her heart is broken and she is always the one who brighten up my day even she couldnt brighten her own.
Even though our time is through our love is faded... Is it still ok to say i love you. Is it ok of i were one who shead the tear. I want love and happiness too but when i'm not able to let go what is use to be. I know i shouldnt but i cant let go of you and me and how it use to be.
See the outline of the frames
Of where the pictures used to be
Closets full of clothes are empty
Now this mess belongs to me
Leaving me room for all the baggage
I've been keeping locked inside
I said I'd get over her, but I lied....
Yesterday, she walked out of my life
She said it was the best for both of us
The other day, I was doin' fine
But yesterday was the last day of my life
Every minute I'm alone
I watch the phone I can't believe
It's so pathetic how my imagination
Gets the best of me
Maybe I'll phone her up, won't act grown up
Then she'll hang up the line
Now I'll just have to get a life
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
10:12 PM
When letter was handed to me every weekly i dont seriously spend some time reading it cause i think that after all i will have guess what is written inside. I dont really put alot of effort in reading and understanding what is the true meaning of the letter till now then i realise. Every single letter was put in with smile and tears, every single word that is written down mean it right from the heart. We understand each other so natural we will get use to each other bad habit but something we just take each other for granted. The time we spend on other thing will be much more than spending quility time with each other, sometime we ever wait for your loves one to come home. When you come to exam period each of us drift apart, we begin to spend more time with your studies then me. When it's my true busy at work without fail i will always give you a call to check on how are you doing today but most of the time either you are asleep or in school. We hardly talk for a period of time ever thought we meet almost daily, letter from us begin to cut down and sometime i do find that i have a few letters from you which is unread yet. I was wondering after reading should i reply a letter to you ? If i dont izzit because i am lazy or i just simply got nothing to talk about. I still cant answer this qus to myself, maybe selfish bring me together and forgetting about the person who use to care and love me alot. I drift further apart and being to live in my world, my promises in the past had become a lie. I fail to do my part and i guess i really hurt you badly nothing to defence for myself cause it's a caught in action feeling. At that point of time nothing else can replace the i hate you feeling in your heart, you will never want to see or ever hear from me again. Can you imagine how pathetic can she be holding on to something that is not coming back and i guess that should be my heart. It's not easy to say goodbye i do have a hard time moving on trying to learn how to live alone. No more phone calls everyday, no more meet up session and of cause the nagging of your voice have disappeared from my ears. The peaceful moment that i have make me feel lonely and fearful, soon i realise i lost my pupose in life. If i have realise and understand how you feel in every single letter maybe today things would end like this perharp now we are sharing the same purpose in life.
Monday, January 28, 2008
The stranger sang a theme
From someone else’s dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can’t seem to recall
When you came along
Ingenue
Ingenue I just don’t know what to do
The tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can’t seem to forget
When you came along
Ingenue
Ingenue I just don’t know what to do
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:07 AM
What we have together is real.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
It took me some time to firgure out because
I used to think love was supposed to be perfect
Without disagreement,
With struggle but i've learned that true meaning of the phrase.
'Anything is worth having is worth working for'
Our love is special, it's timeless, it's true
I dont have to speak sugar-coated phrases to you
In order to prove my love for you.
I dont have to buy you things to prove my love.
You know my heart,
What we have is not a show...
It's just real people with real life
Real feelings and a very special real love.
I can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true.
I can't believe how I have fallen for you.
And I was not looking, was content to remain.
And it's ironic to be back in the game.
You are the one who's led me to the sun.
How could I know that I was lost without you...
And I want to tell you, you control my rain..
And you should know that you are life in my veins
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:25 PM
It take alot of effort to trust someone and trust actually is a very friglie things in life without that we actually can put our heart at ease. To earn your trust the 1st stay is never start to lie once you did everything wouldnt be the same. Ever though certainly you didnt do at all bu with your bad record naturally ppls will think you did it before.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Sometime certain day in our life we will happen to have this someone special that come across our mind or maybe certain places that you go or certan thing you do just remind you of that special person. Well good memories are to be kept and be reminded of those happy moment, something i do think that why will we start to quarrel? why happy moment just dont last long? why do i have to make my mistake? So many qus till now i still cant answer them myself. I still belive in fate cause if there is the 1st and 2nd time i belive the 3rd time will happen again it's just the matter of time and patient. Do tell a person that you love her if you ever try to cheat on her cause if you really do love her you wouldnt do such a cruel and stupid thing to her. She give you all her time and effort but just because of your mistake a big crush just drop down on her. I promise myself never make the same mistake again.
You know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart
I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:55 AM
please let this be true and dont keep me in doubt because i am gald to know and found it out, we will face it together and work thing out. I know you are strong outside but actually deep down inside you are very weak, I will walk with you till the end of time do not worry about what you dont have cause we can start all over again. If you plan to love someone for lifetime and spend the rest of your life with her, please promise to love her and be faithful to her till your life end. Hold her tight dont ever let it go, tuck here to bed at night & kiss her goodnight. Give her your shoulder to cry one when she needed you, lend you elf ears to her when she want to neg at you. Let her scream when she need to destress, wrap your arm around her when she feel insecure. Together in all you will walk hand in hand down your life forever.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Someone once told me this before: Once the trust is broken, it's hard to repair. A thousand apologies will not mend the thousand wounds that you have inflicted on my heart.I don't find playing mind games enjoyable at all'. This really remind me of my love lift and i promise myself will never ever do that to the next person that i love the most in my life again
P.S: I am looking for you around patiently over here i miss you badly
XOXO -Sn0w_MaN
There is someone out there for me
I know there is someone out there
I know she is waiting so patiently yeah
Can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh?
How does she cry?
What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she?
Who is gonna complete my world?
Where are you?
I'm look all over the world baby
Cuz I know you're out there
I know it might sound crazy...
But I love you
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
9:15 PM
When wanna to let you go and give up everything you came back and give me hope, i try not to believe that your hope was there for truth but still believe and trust you. Things was doing well in the 1st place but as time past you slowly drift away from me again. Maybe my love for you wasnt strong enough or maybe you dont put much faith in me but whatever it's after all it's just an affiar. Loving you so deep does mean anything to you but sad thing is whenever i need you badly you couldnt be there for me. I might not tally my words with action but deep down inside i dont lie about my action, i am ready for you to ask anything if you doubt me so dont just keep everything to yourself. You are coming back in 2 weeks time and seriously i dont really think that we will make things better when you are here. Maybe my faith for you is no longer 100% after so many thing have happen but no matter what i do keep my promises for you. I respect your decision on what you are planning to do next and if this time things really happen promise me dont bring back with you again. I dont want you to be caught in between things again, i want you to be happy with your life max out and live it well. No matter who you love or no matter who are you going to spend the rest of your life with just be happy and live with no regret. I do have lotz of regret in life so that why i being to treasure ppls around me, i am sorry if i do throw temper at you sometime cause i mean you just cant guess what i want from you. In life we do fall sometime but learn from that mistake why did we fall and in future how can we prevent ourselves from falling.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Rain,falls continuously
Why,doesn't the flower bloom?
Despite my careful watering
you just say you won't love and don't love
watch and appreciate the sorrow alone
Love is left with only helplessness
I kept refusing to guess
White emptiness will always fill the gap
between the black keys of the piano
Missing a piece it can never be exciting
Say Goodbye
How can two hearts that rely on one another say goodbye
You know better than I do, yet you still want me to say it
Loving so deeply can make people crazily courageous
I betray myself to reach your expectations
Let it be the last indulgence I give you
Coldly, drearily, mildly I will no longer watch over you
As long as you can be
My heart has only one regret
Who can I still ask to
Before you close the door look back again for me
to see if our snippets are still there
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
10:48 PM
She ask me before why does this happened to her over and over again
Monday, January 14, 2008
why i dont feel guilty why such thing still going on
izzit the love she give is not enough
or izzit me who dont love her anymore
She wanted to ask me
Is she the one who can provide me happiness
Is she the one who always be there for me when i need her the most
She smile with tear and left alone
Her heart was broken and her soul was taken
The dream that we build was shettered by my mistake
She left with nothing but her pride
Pride of knowing that it's not worth forgiving
I miss those time when we talk endlessly
unknownly that time just past by
I miss those time when we build our dream
The dream that add colours to life
I miss those time when we patch up after the quarrel
The smile on your face make my day
I miss those time when when we fall in love so easily
that makes me wonder how did i fall in love with you
I will always remember the special ocassion that we spent
the special moment will always be unforgettable
The things that we shared, the hand that i hold
It will always flash back and run in my mind
I miss those time when you do your little action
Which show me the childlike side of you
I miss those time when you show me your passion
Which always make me fall in love
I remember your tearful face when you left that day
The pain that you have i wouldnt ever understand
The beautiful moment, the happy memories
It will stop and kept it there
Who fall in love so freely
Who love somebody too much
Who have change the love of my life
Who dont show care and concern anymore
Who is the selfish one who create this to happen
Who dont remember that someone actually out there
All along waiting for you
Giving you the care and concern that you need
I guess i have to let go
I should stop pretending
Who will understand how much this person worth to me
I dont want to be hurt again
Loving someone too deep
The disappointment make my heart sink
No tear , no explaination
我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么
想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌记
得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了
我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔
我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:37 AM
Have been falling sick since last week, caught a flu from a friend just by sharing drink through same straw so you can see how powerful is the gems spreading. I just have dinner with Mr & Mrs Lim last night ( Kp & Cath) haha... cath is moving on with her new life glad to hear that from her. Well i guess marriage take alot of courage to do so and faithfulness is the most important thing, if you cant be tight down by your partner than dont ever think about put yourself too early into the graveyard.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
I actually have a super bad name in relationship most of my exs will name me as jerk, cheater or sometime ever well known to be a super buaya... haha.. i guess when it's time for me to truely love that person the person have give up hope on me. There are so many happening things in my life since teenage and i didnt actually learn them from lesson and some of them i still repeat and repeat. I am a person who do things in rush i dont really think twice before i do something this cause me alot of regret in life. I guess the worse thing that i have done is to let her done and i gurss that that very moment she really hate me more than anything else. Now we are not friends we hardly talk but the funny things is that i dont why she is in good mood today call me just because i msg her.
All these precious moment, with you by myself
Must be a gift from heaven, that holding me all night
I don’t know how I found you but I am thankful that I have
I have a love so true to hold to keep to share
In my heart I can no long hold inside, all the love that I use to hide
I always be ever till the very end
In the world there is no place that will be
You are my light, my soul , my girl
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
9:24 PM
Yesterday i was back at work but haiz... got sick again Mr flu came and look for me last night have a diffcult time to sleep. Today went to work for 2hours but due to flu was really bad couldnt take it anymore so in the end took MC and go home. Haiz.. recently behaving quite emo trying to pack my feeling to clear my head. I guess denying certain things doesnt actually help to avoid qus, the more you want to deny and avoid it the more it will come to you. I really dont know how to handle this but i seriously dont wish to think about it and if can dont wish to face it.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.
And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey
,And the sun will set for you.
Pink cards and flowers on your window
,Your friends all plead for you to stay.
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
9:37 PM
I dont wish that this will happen as well but since it already happened lets face the problem together. I really dont hate you for what you have done, hate is a strong word to use so i dont really like to use it. I am doing well so dont worry so much about me, i maybe be unhappy or sad but still life still have to move on i cant just stop here just for you. I dont choose to run or hide i am here to face the problem, so you must learn to do so as well. Let it go before we sink in deeper cause i dont want to hurt you as well and i dont wish to be hurt, you cant give p what you have now for me so do i cant fully give up what i have for you. After all we are just stranger and perharps at our very most unhappy moments we happen to be there for each other. Something i do ask myself why did i ever start all this, didnt i use to be cool about all this relationship and affair things. I guess maybe i have grow up be still need to improve, i being to treasure relationship and people around me. The past is over i am keeping it as memories sometime when you miss that person just take a moment to think about the happy moment that you use to share. I want you to be happy since i cant give you happiness than let my blessing make it better.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
7:05 PM
We need a break it's too long to drag it again and again.
Friday, January 04, 2008
The rule of the game is we are not suppose to have anything to do with each other, i have never hate you so stop making wild guesses.
Dont make worse when the peace is just coming for you, selfishness cant give you the best of both world, either 1 of the party will be hurt so let thing be what it should be.
I kept my promise all these while whether you have change anot, maybe you have changed or maybe the feeling is lost.
If things happen again i will make sure what had happen will left it here and not bring it forward to make us suffer again.
Please dont ask about the feeling that i left in the past, what most important now is to treasure what is present at this moment.
It's too late to apologize for the mistake, after all let go the past and learn to move on.
Finally I understand that you have become a memory
There’s no word to explain it when I’m being asked by others
Its like some kind of breath ambushed at the corner of the street
Unintentionally passed by,Recollecting all the sweet and sad memories of the past
Suddenly heartache is unable to constrain anymore
Actually, it has never been forgotten…
Loved you…There’s many words which I forgot to tell you
If all the mistakes can be repeated
Will it be able to change the ending?
Why after so long we are still unable to say goodbye…
Loved you…I can only sigh softly in my heart
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:43 AM
I hate the way you call me
Thursday, January 03, 2008
I hate the way you say my name
I hate the way you stare at me
I hate the way you make me laugh
I hate the way you read my mind
I hate the way you make me cry, that sometime i dont every know why
I hate the way you lie to me, that a lie doesnt make it right
I hate the way you love me, cause you dont ever know why
I hate the way we quarrel, cause it doesnt come to the end
I hate the way you wait for me, cause you waiting are all lie
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:35 PM
No matter how grand or how unforgettable your wedding is after all is just a wedding, marriage is a life time thing it take 2 persons to come together and agree on this marriage and this marriage will last you for a lifetime. I just attended cath & kp wedding last night it was a very wonderful and successful event, morning event was so fun with the groom & bro gang. I guess this is something that Kp will never forget, lotz of photo shoots and of cause the laugher and joys from us. Evening event was ever more fun, witness Cath to be Mrs Lim, the time when they exchange their wedding ring, the time when they pledge the wedding pledge and of cause the sweet moment when kp kiss cath. It's all well recorded in my mine and it's something that i will remember and also the wedding dinner was so successful. The ballroom was prefect blend in with red & black colour, follow by conrad lovely bear sitting on the table and of cause the wonderful foods and drink. The corktail was serve with strawberry trees and chocolate foudue, with strawberry mocktail & of cause heniken beer. Sister gang set on the VIP table and i guess we really enjoy ourself, the busy work in the day is pay off in the night and of cause the happiness from us to cath is never ending. Cath if you happen to read this i want to tell you that i really enjoy myself last night and i kept my promise to bring her to the dinner. I am so happy for you that you are Mrs Lim now dont worry about the problem that you are facing in future k, share it with kp and let him take care of you. You are going to start a new chapter with Kp now and i give my full blessing to you and him, hope to get to see you having your 1st child soon k.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Well finally the wedding is over i have done my part liao and i have talk to diva already, i am happy that she turn up for the wedding and help out in the sister gang. I know she is piss of with me over certain things but all i have to say is i am sorry if in anyway i have hurt you. Thank for doing so much for me i can see you effort and you have really done enough liao, I know certain things cant change the fact ever though i still hope that it should change. I am glad that you are happy with her and of cause i know she treat you well and love you alot alot, try not to quarrel too much with her k. I know what are you thinking about yesterday and i am sorry that it's me who cant move on but i guess since it's a new year i should learn to put things aside and move on ahead. 3 years ago i make my mistake and 3 years later i still cant get over and done with it, we knew each other for 10years liao what a long time and i tell you it's so hard to let it go.
I knockout last night after i got home not because i am drunk but i just tired and also dont want to think so much about all the unhappy incident. I will always remember everything that she have done for me and i guess i wouldnt push my luck this is enough already. I got woking up this afternoon by a call from that her and i guess by she called also, well i certainly think that this affair should stop because she cant give me 100%. I am tired i dont wish to walk alone and it's really damn sad that when you need the person to be there just even to talk the person cant do so for some reason. I know soon you will read this i dont how to tell you over the phone but certainly i am not happy with what we are going through. We seriously need to have a good time when you are back here so meanwhile let dont contact each other till you are here in feb. I just want to let you know also in case you couldnt get me that day drop me a msg cause i might be going for training i will give you a call once i am done. If i still cant get you i will give huiling a call to make sure you are back her, i apply liao for the next 2 days when you are back. I will still keep my promise so just give me a call k, i guess for the next 31days you should think about what you want to tell me when you are here. I will be glad to spend the night listening to what you gonna tell me and i hope that end of the day everything will turn out good, dont forget about the raw fish as well k.
She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things Within the measure of a day
She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem Inside her shell
She
Who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
She
May be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I'll remember till the day I die
She
May be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years
Me I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is She
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
10:41 PM
No man is worth your tear the one who does will not make you cry. Never dump your gf for a jerk or a bitch and end of the day then you realise that it's a wrong choice to do so. I have never done anything wrong in any relationship but not being faithful is the 1 super wrong thing that i have done wrong in my life. When i change to be honest and faithful no one believe but i change to be unfaithful again they everyone just believe of what happeing. I wonder izzit so hard to be pure again or izzit so hard for ppls to believe in you again once you have hurt them before or someone polluted them by telling them that you are not a honest person.
When i honestly tell her that i love her she dont believe me i got no choice cause there is no way to prove to her. When i didnt do anything he dont believe me he rather think that i got something to do with someone else just because i used to be honest to him and just because i admit what i have done in the past. Well ppls just cant accept the fact of what you partner have done to you and why cant they believe and trust them for the currently relationship they have. I am tired and i had really have done my part and my best to mend it back or to explain myself but stll nothing help much to his think that got nothing to do with it. How much i need to do to consider that is enough or how honest musti be to get the little trust from you. I need a shoulder to to cry on, i want a hug that can take away my sorrow. I am looking forward to feb that is when you are here, i cant wait any longer.
Me, I never hurt anyone
Even though breaking up, I only wish to leave my name
I’m so much willing to give a kiss
Why is this tenderness forbidden
If we can hug and sleep, I’m willing to shorten my life span for a few years
Who can sacrifice his life like me
If it’s a sin to be with you, it’s the rule that is wrong
I want to try, even it’s to leave this world alone I’ll try
I’d rather God punishes me, I let myself seriously injured for you(
King Kong and the beauty falling in love is also a legend a rhapsody(
Even if the ending is resentment, I have to fight you openly
I’m not scared of the bullets, step by step I’m up to the tower(
To appreciate your melancholy
Even if you already have someone else, do not hinder me for getting my love one
Climbing up slowly, till I’m high enough to embrace and kiss you
Don’t say that too deeply, if we’re willing to we’re compatible
I have enough determination, being shot more I’m braver
I despise, I don’t believe, I’m not scared, disappointment makes me stronger(
Even though it’s an unrealistic thought to have you, to show you to the world
I have my dream, however high it is I dare to climb
This love is a legend, a unique
Even if the ending is resentment, I have to fight you openly
I’m not scared of the bullets, step by step I’m up to the tower
Two people with hard lives hugging and looking down together at the (sufferings) in the world
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
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