Sunday, September 30, 2007
Wedding after wedding, i am pack up with wedding dinner from year end till next yr march at this moments, haiz... the whole world is getting married. I don't know izzit too early or is the prefect time to do so. I mean since you found your partner and you this he is the one and don't wait liao. My sister also getting married soon haiz.. yr end than next yr jan it will be cath turn, march will be michelle, and sep will be eileen offical wedding dinner. I guess i feel bless with them around, they making me execited about the new life that they are going through i am happy for them.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
I just went back to paulner, haiz.. love to be back home the feel is so damn good. I goes well with Eileen and partner & also with therasa around as it suppose to be a birthday celebration + meet up session. I say my fav paulner singer haha.. she is back i really miss her & her voice. I am sos happy when i know about it that she is back, she do ask me about xue ren but i don't how to answer her haiz... It's me, my faults and i really don't want to talk about all this la. I want to let it come naturally for me, i mean so what if i still have feeling for the someone else. I know it well that it can't happen between us so i rather not to know about it, ever thought i really want to know the true. Love me is the end, my fac singer told me that she will never sing that for me again, never ever again. I don't know izzit because we are not together or it might be also a love song for her as well. I also didn't wish that love me will be sing again without xue ren around, miss those time when at paulner i will receive a artpiece created by xueren. haha... It's over la i being to think about life, alot things make me change my way of thinking. I guess it's time to grow up and learn from mistake, if others already trial and error don't follow blindly also. You will only hurt yourself more and never learn your lesson. Someone once say, you can show a man what you can but you can't teach his what is life. I guess now my feeling is very confused over alot of things, i am actually under pressure and stress recently. Everything just fall apart without warning given, i am pretty not prepare for everything. I have to face the fact it's like that move as it goes on.
I cant fight this feeling any longer
And yet Im still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show
I tell myself that I cant hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
Cause I feel so secure when were together
You give my life directionYou make everything so clear
And even as I wanderIm keeping you in sight
Youre a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winters night
And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
Its time to bring this ship into the shoreAnd throw away the oars, forever
Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
Ive been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems that Im following you, girl
Cause you take me to the places that alone Id never find
And even as I wander Im keeping you in sight
Youre a candle in the window on a cold, dark winters night
And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
Its time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever
Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your doorBaby, I cant fight this feeling anymore.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
3:10 AM
I never feel so down for so damn long, i never feel so lost and dunno what to do at all. Everything just goes wrong and wrong, i cant figure out what's wrong or have i really make the wrong choice. There are cetain time in life there are down moments and here come mine down moments: 1st woke up at 9am when i suppose to be in office by 9am, 2nd left my house without knowing that i didnt bing my wallet, 3rd make a big U turn back home just to collect my wallet but realise that i have lost / misplace it, 4th 930am i am still at home finding my wallet.. haiz.. damn it!!! give up after a 15 min seach... 5th left for work and though maybe can reach by 10am but... the bad thing is my bloody bike broke down in the mid of the road at upper seragoon road, 6th call fren to ask for tow track service but was give wrong no... 7th push my bloody heavy rvf to the side of the wrong when the whole world looking at me ( i am in jacket & riding boots in a hot sunny morning). 8th walk 15min to a posb atm just to withdrawn cash and clever enough i took only my atm card and left without taking my $50 cash, 9th walk back to the damn atm machince to as the bank teller what to do and luckily there is a police officer around to return me the cash, 10th wait for 45min for a cab and bloody hell singapore got no fucking cab or all cab got eaten up by monster. I reach office at bloody 11am which i am late for 2hours i got a bloody exam to take a 930am and i am really dead liao. I dunno how to explain this to by boss as he is gonna to qus me tml morning, haiz... than i though my nightmare got to be over. My member call from overseas to complain about the resort they are currently staying in now... it took me 1 hour to change 1 room for them and 1/2 hour to talk to them and understand what is the whole problem. I went for my exam and i dun think i did well for it cause alot of this kind of things actually affect me alot.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
I went out after all stress i have, when to mt feber with whisk,james & cow... i finally dun need to ride up, i am james's pillion. I wasn't in a very good mood also cause i actually thinking of some emo thing la, i realise that someone might be interested in that someone that i like and i can see that they are actually quite close. I really dunno what to do i confirm not planning to let go this new by telling everyone i intereted in getting a realtionship again.
I guess all this can prevent if i dun think so much, nothing much actually will happen, life is like a dance you learn as you go something you lead and sometime you follow, dun worry about what you dunno. I guess what you can do is to let go and everything will be good, someone once say when this is not yet in ur life is not consider yours so since that the person you crush on is still single does mean that it's meant for you. Learn to move on is a form of art, it take a second to time, a min to decide but a lifetime to to know what you want.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
2:22 AM
I haven't ha ve a good rest from start of the month till now, finally today is my off day can sleep like nobody business. I didnt go for training since sava race is over, i actually didnt enjoy it well la. I guess maybe it's a really small race and everyone wasnt really prepare for it and it turn out that everyone was abit disappointed with it. I guess this time round the girl do it very well at least manage to get into the semi final ever we didnt bring home cookie.... For me i was busy over at natas haiz.. as usually quoting the wrong price and this time round i got to bear the cost and haiz.. not a small amount, really damn sian lor...
Friday, September 14, 2007
Have been quite emo recently, i guess maybe because of stress. Haiz.. now my workload is added into my shoulder and i am more into cruises now. It's like the most happening things gonna happen in town end of this year . I mean it's just cruises why everyone from all over the world have to make a big fuss abit it, haiz.. I need a break and i really want a holiday. I am riding up to KL next month togethe with SBF fren haha.. 1st time going touring and somemore with my rvf feeling abit scared. I hope it gonna be fine cause alot of ppls who go touring dun really have good exprience, i guess got to prepare it and get ready to chiong ah... I guess that all about my work life erm... as for my love life erm... currently i have already forget abt the person who sore of kiss my fren. I mean they didnt end up together but they are still as close as ever la. I recently have been quite close to this person la but i know the feeling between us is not there so i dun actually planning to build it up. I guess this kind of things just let it be nature lor cause you wouldnt know what's gonna happen next. I really understand quite alot of things recently being to understand how to treasure ppls around me. The things that wrote below use is actually how i feel about myself when i was with xue ren. I treasure every moment we spent and it's over and it will be kept as something special.
Sometimes I drink till I'm drunk , I like to have freedom
I always make mistake and I love to lie, But I do feel guilty
I've met dozens of unsrupulous friends
I learned to prefer new things and abandon the old ones
I owe to so many women
I'm afraid of marriage , I never keep to my promise
I've promised to quite smoking but I was just simply saying
I've forgotten my dreams , I'm fed up of my job
I'm bad in planning my life since I was little
But there's still (in the world) only you who love this useless me
You bear my mistakes and my faults
We both know that we're not suitable for each other
Yet you're still willing to wait
Why do you still love me, a rascal like me?
Are you too silly or are you too generous?
Everyone bashes me , No matter how bad my reputation is
But you never seem to care about that
Why are you with me, a rascal like me?
Having lived half of my life yet I'm so useless
But your faith never breaks , You struggle with me with a grin
However bad I am , I won't be cruel enough to cheat on you
My life is like the weed without root
Only you appreciate me , Do everything for me
My previous love is a long list , But I'm putting a full stop (period) to it
You still love me, a rascal like me
Are you too silly or are you too generous?
Everyone bashes me , No matter how bad my reputation is
But you never seem to care about that
Why are you with me, a rascal like me?
Having lived half of my life yet I'm so useless
But your faith never breaks, You struggle with me
Even if it's for others, No one will be cruel enough to cheat on you
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
4:28 AM
I found this from Leo horoscope
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
You know something is wrong in one of your relationships, so why aren't you paying more attention to it? It doesn't take more time or energy to look at these issues deeply -- it just takes more honesty. You might be afraid of what you find, but whether you find it or not, it's still there. Wouldn't you rather know what you're dealing with right now? Be brave and take a long, hard look at things. Chances are, they are fixable. And once you fix them together, things will be stronger than ever.
Wait For You lyrics by Elliott Yamin.
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for youIf you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to doI’ll wait for you
Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying
Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to doI’ll wait for you
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for youIf you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for youI’ll be waiting …
I am really busy this month of sep lotz of things need to do, roadshow after 1 another. I guess by doing these keep me awake on wat i want in life and also keep me away of thinking things that i dun wish to think of. I was doing some preparing for my ex company natas fair as well as my office just launch a new web for my club department so damn lor of things to do. I was at GMT last night didnt know that i saw someone that i dun wish to see, i was shock when i turn my head over. I bet the person might think that i knew am looking at them. It's a sad thing seeing that someone you love the most is holding another person hand walking around and the person beside it wasnt you . The most sad thing is that this doesnt matter to that person and the person still carry on the life as usual. What are you compare to the others,nothing beat the love,care,concern and trust when the person needed you the most. I was reading some horscope thingy on life and the above was my horscope of the day and seriously it sound like it link to the things that i just say. I really dunno why but seriously recently too much things happen and it doesnt sound so good, recently there are alot of things that i have to decide and do and alot of things i really dunno how to start from. Cath's wedding is round the corner and nothing was done at this point, meet up should be round the corner but everyone is so busy especially that diva. I need help and advise i dunno wat to do where to start from, once someone did say leo is a person who is faithful but due to the nature of itself leo tense to fling around with other. This cause the break up on realtionship, but leo treat all the realtionship truefully and love them equally. I do sometime think back that certain things that i have done was wrong and ungiveable but i guess all these by saying is also no use. I wish i know wat i can do to change all these fate that i have been throught, certain things in life i dun wan it to happen but it just happen. I guess moving on also must be part on my bit and puzzle.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:51 PM
busy, sad, lost,worry,damn tired. I NEED HOLIDAY, I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:23 PM
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