Monday, June 25, 2007
Recently have been quite sian, got my rvf <--- new bike but lot of problem haiz.. i think it's jus me la always like that one new bike never fail not to give me any problem. I got spend lot of time and $$ on it damn sian lor. I was reading someone blog recently than i realise that last time i did alot of silly and funny thing, i mean those time when me & diva & ck use to spend time go drinking and shopping. I still remember we use to bully ck alot haha... poor boy, those day when ck only can drink 1 can of beer or 2 glass of not so strong beers haha. Well as time pass everyone get busy and tense to forget all this small little things that we use to spend in the past. I guess i am a person who dun like to move on who dun like to look wat is ahead of me, i wll look back as i walk down my life. I belive in life we need friends and familes and they make a big part in my life, they share my happiness and sorrow, they are there for me when i needed $$$, needed freedom, needed care and concern, needed someone to talk to and needed a shoulder to cry on. I miss those time, if i can stop the clock and change the past i will want to turn back the clock and trasure every single day that i have with them.
Monday, June 18, 2007
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
12:57 AM
I dunno wat wrong with me i just dun feel right, i cnt tell whether i am sad, happy, gloomy or blue. It's like i sore of lost something important but dunno wat izzit, i feel like i am worry about something but i also dunno wat izzit. I wan to talk to others but i dunno wat to talk about, i wan to cry but i cant. I cant decide on wat i wan, wat wrong with me. I was planning something for the bao this coming christmas, i guess some ppls might thing that i am mad cause christmas is still 6 months always but i already start planning. Well It's me cause i like to do things in advance , i dun wan thing to mess up on a special day when i wan to make the person happy. I know wat to get and i know wat time and where it suppose to be sent to, but sometime i wonder whenever the item that is sent to her will she grin or smile or ever feel surpise. I mean 90% she ususal know that is from me unless she expect something out from that "angel" well hmm... I dun need much from her, i just wan the bao to be happy with wat she has. I guess end of the day if 1 day something really bad happen to me i really hope she will attend my wake. knowing that after all these all i try my best to make up to her. I try lotz of way to look after and take care of her, she is a indepardent lady and extramely caring bao at all time. She will never fail to take care of those people who needed her help, she got not much patient but she always make a point of not to vain at other people espeically her lovely children. She is childlish at times but it's her childlishness that make her unique from others, she know when she should behave and when is time to be rubbish with me. She is always subborn with her words and she really take alot of pride in herself, she will not let others to ruin her life or mood. I still remember a coffee a day keep her going to toliet, she need at least a coffee a day she that she wouldnt have that kind of shitty feeling. Nothing can stop her from doing that daily thingy which something i actually quite piss off with her, i really dun understand wat wrong with me doing that shitting things as it does really kill her. I guess it's just me who cant be patient toward her, haiz... anyway these story are the past and no point of saying all this.
Thursday, June 07, 2007
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
10:30 PM
I have been sometimes since i've been blogging, ever since star of may i was slacking till finish got a job in june. I am still back in travel line hehe... but this time round job and pay is good location of my work place also not too bad. It's just that the troublesome thing is that it's in CBD area got to pay $1.50 ERP everyday haiz... and also damn hard to find parking lot cause CBD area we biker consider that as a golden area mainly for cars not for bikes. I have to park in a public carpark across the building and walk 5 min to get back to my office. It's abit shit la but no choice cause i got no where else to park. I actually feel quite down recently dunno why also just a special kind of feeling i very long never felt like this liao. It's hard for me to say anyway haiz.. I mean i dunno whether am i avoiding something or really serious about forgetting the thing. I feel that in a relationship trust issue can be a major problem if you dun handle well, I mean it take 2 hands to clap but a o/w relationship will not end up good in anywhere. If you did try to talk it out and given so many chances but nothing still remain the same then wat is the point of holding on to it. You hold on to it maybe because you think that the person might change, or you think that actually all you have just done was a rush thing, or maybe you really love the person alot that you cant bear to let go. Something our mind will tense to take over our heart and just play us out and in the in we dunno why we keep giving that person chances and he/she just take it for granted. I just deciding in this kind of relationship you must stand firm and be share about what you actually want, dun drag and waste each other times in the end both of you will suffer.
i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at
11:51 PM
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