I got really terrible week man, i think i really too stress liao i actually didnt sleep well for the past week. I was at paulaner on monday it's my fav 1 for 1 and of cause nevcr forget abt my drinking kaki beverly, well i drunk 3mugs of 0.5lites dark beer follow by 2 glasses of white wine but when i was abt to leave. I met some fren then he bought me 1mug of 1 lites dark beer, fuck man i really cant drink anymore but i can run too. I left with no choice got to finish those beer and my poor beverly was like kanna seduce by some old wolf man, keep so close to her and wan to talk also must try to touch here and there. I got to try to make them drink with me so that they wouldnt disturb her, so within 30min i was total high, and i was so fucking high until i cant walk at all. I have never been drunk at paulaner at all, not at all for the past 4yrs and total i fucking drunk man. I mean i know roughtly wat i was doing la but kao.. i cant control my moves, i went str to the toliet and throw out my shasimi which i taken before the beer. I came be with the i am ok look but when i sat on the stool i start my merlion i threw out everything into that 1 lites mug. I cant belive it i did that infront of all my fren, I dun wan to make things worse i went out to the bar to vomit more. I fall totally on the floor cut my finger through some plants and i jus sat there to wait for beverly to come and save me. I dunno why she bought me to orchard also in the end i ended up at cineplex toliet, vomit for 20min and she keep tell me to come out and but i still vomitting how to come out. Haiz... well before this incident happen i suppose to go to diva's house to pass her mum some food in the end i drag the whole bloody thing until midnight then i go. I got better after throwing out everything i feel much better, we drove to diva's house and i didnt expect her to be home but fuck she is home. I try not to make a fool out of myself over at her place cause i think her mum dunno that i am drunk so 1st thing i put the food on the table and i rush to the kitchen for water.She saw me and i told her that i was drunk so sound concern but look happy that i am drunk, she was talking to karyn and of cause tell her beloved gf that some drunken ass is in her house, I was quite piss of at her when she jus tell her wat state i was in when i was jus standing right infront of her( she also commented that i got a SUPER UGLY hair which look like grass). I mean i didnt do anything to her la but still i wanna to talk to her but she jus keep chasing me home telling me that to rest more. I got home at 130am after senting beverly i think dun really keep track on time so 1st thing i do i called her telling her i was home. It's was like oh... ok you are home ah... good lor, i think i was talking some rubbish to her and tell her some rubbish that i shouldnt say and the best part is i still sms her after tell her those rubbish. I guess i really make a big fucking fool of myself, after i woke up the next day with a big hungover and heavy head i sms her telling her i am sorry for wat rubbish i say last night but no response from her. I guess she is not piss of with me cause she wouldnt belive on wat i say to her but i really feel so paiseh for doing all those things. I wanna to go down to her work place to look for her but after thinking it's like not really nice, dun wan to create anymore ugly thingy between us and i know she sure will be angry with me. Iguess i will not get drunk again until cath's wedding day, i promise man if not i really will die young.

I actually ddint really study for my paper at all ever my leaturer gave all notes which is 90% actual qus from the paper but i still didnt study it, i actually use the time which i suppose to study to sleep and i sleep more then 12hrs. I guess because i walk too much la, i actually walk from Gim Moh to Tanglin but my actual plan was to walk to orchard tower where i park my bike but while walking alone in the middle of the night like 4am i was offer a ride from the stranger a mid age guy. I dun really think he will do any harm on me la so i took his ride then in the end he ask so much qus like i am 1 of those who work in orchard tower like that. FUCK MAN and the stupid thing i gave him my number, he keep calling me and sms me for 2days. I cant take it liao i jus call him to tell him that if he keep calling again i will make police report then finally i got peace from that day onward. I guess i got to belive nothing is free in this world lucky this is sg if it's in state i guess i will be gone by now.

i skated in the lonely world ...quiet and undisturbed at 11:46 AM